insanity will save me from going crazy : )

How's that so? *wink* That's for you to figure it out. Haha. In the midst of processing that stupid line, don't get yourself all too worked up. she's mad. haha!

this girl has lots of crazy dreams, and she hopes that at least few of them would come true if not all. *smiles*

this little piggy wishes everyone all the best & good luck in everything! : )

*HUGS* take care

恋

单恋是愚痴
相恋是理想
自恋是傲慢

哈哈，上课无聊，突然想起一堆废话理论。

different kind of good

It has been a good week, or rather different kind of good. *smiles*

met Yen and we talked like old chums & thanks for the surprise gift!
skipped lecture for the 1st time this sem cos I couldn't wake up
managed to let go of certain things that I've been clinging onto too much
spoke to my German classmate for the first time
photocopy-shop aunt initiated small talk & told me to study hard :)
some random Indian woman complimented on my shirt in the lift
people appeared friendlier or maybe they always have been but I never took notice
want to know the weather forecast? ask my knee *arthritis at my age??*
crazy said I looked younger! Haha
queen gave me a pleasant surprise =)
perhaps the week will only get better *crossed fingers*

despite the mood swing & unwanted cold shoulder. I reasoned myself out *smiles* that will not let myself to be affected. Regardless what, you are not the centre of my universe & it will stay that way till someone comes along who can paint my world picture perfect, perhaps I'll reconsider :p

Everything just seems more beautiful when one is in love
such radiance beaming on one's face
one seems more approachable and friendly
even the people/strangers on the streets
start smiling and giving compliments
the world just seem to be a better place
despite the mundane shit work in hand
it just seem so minute & insignificant
for love is in the air
all the cares and hugs one need is only a breathe away
breathe... :)

Love is not just looking at each other, it's looking in the same direction. ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery

hugs from piggy :) to you

Everyone seems so worked up these few days. Stress level sky rocket like nobody’s business. I try to keep my cool and sanity level to as normal as I could.

I shall ask not "are you ok?" Honest, no one is ok, it's only superficial.

I shall stress not too, will try, for it will not help if I were, whatever will be will be... (you don't have to ask your mother to tell you this *wink*) just do your best.

I read troubles in your eyes
I felt the helplessness in your gaze
there was nothing I could do
hugs are only way to show my care
but I was afraid to be shunned away
In case if you ever needed one
you can always find me where you left me

There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread. ~Mother Teresa

LoveTM

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What an interesting concept to package love :)
Love is just some foolish game
where there will only be more heart breakers by the end of day
of course there are winners
but consider the number of people that got hurt along the way
there's no right or wrong
only just mr or ms right
have you found urs?
or should I rephrase the question...
how many mr or ms wrong have you rejected and hurt?
life is full of crap.

I care
I show concern
I bother
I help in all ways I could

Even though it is only cold shoulder I received in return
that doesn't make me being less concern
when one decides to love there's no turning back
until when they hit badly
but still love still goes on
but on a different level now
it's silent
it's hiding
it's secretly in action

Love does not mean being together 24/7
is to be able to understand each other
NOT trying to please
DEFINITELY NOT obligatory
Love is being able to fight and argue
but make up by the end of day
with rationale and due respect
never bring disagreements to next day
Love is being able to share and care
the lows and the highs
the sorrows and happiness
Love is being yourself and comfortable with it

my definition of LOVE.

Love with care *hugs*

girl in the mirror

"Grown-ups never understand anything by themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always explaining things to them." ~Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Are you tired?
Yes I am

Why?
because I have been walking and talking and haven't reach a rest stop

Just rest now!
I wish I could but life doesn't permit so. It's like rowing a boat upstream, you can't just stop rowing because you are tired; if you do, you'll just end up downstream once more, and there's a likelihood of getting lost in the big big ocean of the unknown where sharks & dolphins live; mermaids & sea serpents made legendary.

You are nuts! :p
Perhaps I am *smiles* But then again, nuts couldn't speak, could they?

You are insane!
What is sanity? Insanity is a noun used by people who are envious of people like me because they couldn't be one of us! Haha!

You are out of your mind!
*puzzled look* But I was never inside my mind.

You are tired my dear, get some rest & everything will be okay tomorrow. *hugs*
Yes I am. But (there's still something left unexplainable and that how things are left hanging most of the time...) So life goes on as usual, striving for survival every day not knowing what are we fighting for. Survival of the fittest? smartest? By the end of the day, I can't help but to think of the "now". How many unresolved loose ends in life that most probably will never be tied anyway. Questions without answers...

hyper crazy :p

I'm just plain hyper crazy today. I have no idea why... Haha! Something is wrong with me seriously... yea maybe you are right, am too stressed that my intelligence went back by few years! Haha.. it doesn't make sense either. Going to sleep now... I want to make a prediction before I shut my eyes haha, for the next 3 days I'm going to be tired and not hyper. Next week will be emo week, next month will be month of liberation! and the rest will be history if I even manage to walk through April in one piece. Stop crapping crazy! Go to bed, good night sweet dreams sleep tight don't fight off light sleep now, yeah right!

CRAZY!

*go to sleep my sleepy eyes...**smiles*

Thanks people and I love you too!

Thanks everyone & I love you too! :)

Ok, haha, I think I cannot take anymore mushy stuff in my blog. Don't want it to be too sappy. *smiles*

Yes, will miss you all of you a lot! *hugs* And you are right, I can't detached myself from choir. haha, I've accepted that fact. I do wish our dreams will come true haha.. hearty tarts & singing as part time. Lovely life! =) stand-up comedy or sitcom production don't sound too bad too! haha...

Wake up piggy! you are not the centre of the universe ok? And for the nth times, I'm not being emotional, bish, just sad... but not emotional or moody. *smiles*

Anyway, am okay now, no time for such stuff, moving on to the most urgent thing on the agenda -- FYP thesis. Good luck to me & all the best to everyone else too!

I'm going to be so dead, 2 weeks left!! sleepless nights ahead...

love,
piggy turned panda

farewell

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And so I fell hard again
stupidity betrays me
why do I get too attached?
I am in love
saying goodbye to love ones
is one of the most difficult things in life
and loneliness...
it's coming back to me now
my heart shuts out from the world once again
when will it open up to the next?
***
I will not get all emotional
thanks for all your love & support
yes it is time to move on from everything
you gave me the best times in my university life
And yes I miss singing already!
***
Ouch I felt hurt & felt dejected
you said yes to everyone but not to me
it's okay
perhaps it is time for me to move on from you too

Thank you for being there whenever I needed
I don't think I can ever find where I left you in the future
Patience is all I have for you
take care.

hugs & love,
Joanne.

mixed feelings

NUS Choir has given me a lot and I could have never asked for more. *smiles* really. feels kinda sad that I have to graduate and leave all the good things behind in NUS.

Voyage of Songs (Genting Highlands Malaysia)

天下无不散之宴席。

VV2004

I will miss everyone and every single thing! 4 years in the choir indeed a long time, so many projects, competitions, late night suppers, horrendous practices (haha), bitching sessions, external performances, engagements, carolings etc. Am going to miss the people the most! argh...

Festival of Songs (Olomouc, Czech Republic)

*sobs* shouldn't get too attached to one thing it makes departing so much difficult.

VV2006

Have to go through the same shit every year, but every year I tell myself there are new juniors coming in, even though past seniors have left, I can always get acquainted with juniors. And every year the cycle continues, but now what... final year, am leaving!!! Don't even know what the future is like... boring mundane full of shit work? argh.. don't even want to think about it.

VV2006

Oh well, people grow and we have to always move on. I am grateful for all the people and good things that happened in my life in NUS. I do. NUS Choir is like my 2nd family in Singapore.

Thank you.

Hugs with love,
Joanne a.k.a. piggy

tired

tired.
everything is stupid.
altruism is a fad AND a facade.
I'd rather just be a bitch.
you see that smile?
it hides more than it entails.
it's fading.

But... there is one thing that is genuine. Hatiku. The liver. *smiles*