i'm thankful

to be alive (:

Redang Island was awesomely beautiful

and I realize people do care, friends do, family do, even strangers or passerby

To my dear family & all my dear friends: I love you all & thank you for being there for me for all the good times and bad times (:

love, piggy (:

home-maker in the making

Quite a nice Sunday (: except the incredibly hot temperature outside. Grrr... I'm melting. Help.

Ok, so here's it.

I made jelly with peaches and longans (: yay! happy (:

I cooked pasta with button mushrooms and ham in tomato sauce for dinner! yum yum (:

Crazy I am these days dunno why don't ask me.

Finally bought a pair of badminton shoes for myself, don't have to worry about slipping no more.

Sigh... life sucks. my nose starts dripping again. and that ulcer down my throat is irritaing ):

Alright enough complaints, Sundays should be remain as Sundays (: HAPPY

you know what, sometimes I think I speak like a crazed woman, I know... how creepy is that. hahaha.

Love you all, mwah, piggy (:

I'm upset

all these time I was hoping I could get into the office to talk to him and understand what's in his mind. I got the chance this morning. And all I felt after was bitterness.

So I was wrong. I couldn't get into his head. I can't figure it out, too complex for me to comprehend, I couldn't understand. Can't help to ask "But why?" haha.. reminds me of Ivy (: RVR & NUS central forum.

Never mind I feel much better now. Come to think of it, probably none of you would understand half the crap I'm writing, that's fine. (:

i'm still upset but it's ok. That's life. Live with it (: everything will be fine tomorrow. Good night world.

into perspective

Things happen so swift in a blink of an eye... it's June, and I have not blogged for more than a month. Rather foul mood these days, or rather for the past few months, at work. Sometimes I really do not know how people just get by all the nonsense crap at work daily, seriously. And, I have lost my temper several times now at work. Haha.

What's the point? This whole notion of working your ass off to pay bills, debts, live by day by day, for what, waiting to die? Nothing good is going to happen out of this whole shit.

A friend of mine asked me this question 2 weeks ago.
"Would you leave everything behind, and book a flight to France or anywhere in the world to start a life there, right now? Like just pack & leave."
"I would if I have no debts, no responsibilities left here."
"Which means you won't."
"I can't, I couldn't leave things undone behind and let my family to clear off my debts."
"That's it. We can't. We have responsibilities on our shoulders."

Funny.. that's the same thought that went through my head last December. I had the urge to just leave. I was at the airport with my passport, and this crazy thought just came to my head. For that split second, I thought of fleeing.

Joanne, you are crazy I tell you. I know. (:

People blame others for their mistakes all the time. They find excuses, or explanations.. but not thinking about HOW to solve the problems. What's wrong with these people anyway?

I had a talk with my boss yesterday. Businesses are like business, no compassion, and in business, people take advantage of every opportunity, every chance... forget about right or wrong, it's all about the money.

Now let's put things into perspective. A lot has been happening, I just have to put it into perspective. Get real. Sometimes I just get mad for the wrong reason at the wrong person. It's unfair I know.

To trust or not to trust?

Sometimes you think you have it all sorted out, but in actual fact, it's as messy as it was at the beginning.

Do not ever let other people discourage you. (:

love, piggy.

p.s. it's another disorganized entry... don't bother if it's too urgh.. my head ain't thinking straight with a temperature in my brain. good night ppl (: