how much I missed the life I have left behind... it was lovely indeed seeing my cousins and family gathered together. Although not all of them are home, but it was nice to see people that you once spent your time playing, fighting and doing all things with.. are together again once more (: [25-08-2008 2317hr]
how much I have changed within the past 12 months...
that I'm capable of doing the things that I never thought I would ever have the courage nor the ability to accomplish...
things can get so stifling.. to be pushed to the brink is not exactly the best scenery one could imagine it'd be... free falling not knowing what's under can be rather scary
one day I would, too, be afraid.
Recognition of fear needs much bravery... and to concede defeat needs much humbleness.
everyone is just pretty much like everyone else. [31-08-2008 0124hr - P.S. MERDEKA] (:
Monday, August 25, 2008
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
procrastination kills
and so that's why she's dying... so help me please.
You know how people say about not giving up and doing your best and the good one will come along? People do believe, and they do want to believe, but there comes a point where all things point to the other side of everything.
Some say humans by nature are evil, some say are kind... so what about the first sin of mankind, Adam & Eve. And so what I'd say? Honestly I don't give a shit about Adam or Eve or anyone else eons ago for that matter. I mean... seriously? Seriously.
Me? I'm exceptional, some dumb kid who is trapped in her own illusion that all things are still nice and beautiful no matter how wrecked they looked. LOL. Oh my goodness, I'm retarded am I not? Anyway, I beg to differ what my friends said today... I believe humans are kind by nature, people turn to the dark side for survival, people are succumbed by pride, power etc. I don't know. Perhaps I'm wrong, or there won't be any right or wrong for that matter.
Familiarity breeds contempt is not untrue, but is not what I live for to believe.
Work is just work. Life is a whole big picture by itself. And work is merely a small section in the entire life.
I have no idea what am I babbling here... better go off to bed.
How do you love a person again? How do you know he or she is not the last person you'd fall in love with?
No, I'm not in love, it's just random. I've been speaking nonsensical lately. Ask me a question I'll give you numbers, and when you strike any lottery ticket, let's do a 30:70 split. (:
Joanne, seriously, go, just go, sleep. (: Good night life.
love, piggy (:
p.s. stop procrastinating. JUST F***ING DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO.
You know how people say about not giving up and doing your best and the good one will come along? People do believe, and they do want to believe, but there comes a point where all things point to the other side of everything.
Some say humans by nature are evil, some say are kind... so what about the first sin of mankind, Adam & Eve. And so what I'd say? Honestly I don't give a shit about Adam or Eve or anyone else eons ago for that matter. I mean... seriously? Seriously.
Me? I'm exceptional, some dumb kid who is trapped in her own illusion that all things are still nice and beautiful no matter how wrecked they looked. LOL. Oh my goodness, I'm retarded am I not? Anyway, I beg to differ what my friends said today... I believe humans are kind by nature, people turn to the dark side for survival, people are succumbed by pride, power etc. I don't know. Perhaps I'm wrong, or there won't be any right or wrong for that matter.
Familiarity breeds contempt is not untrue, but is not what I live for to believe.
Work is just work. Life is a whole big picture by itself. And work is merely a small section in the entire life.
I have no idea what am I babbling here... better go off to bed.
How do you love a person again? How do you know he or she is not the last person you'd fall in love with?
No, I'm not in love, it's just random. I've been speaking nonsensical lately. Ask me a question I'll give you numbers, and when you strike any lottery ticket, let's do a 30:70 split. (:
Joanne, seriously, go, just go, sleep. (: Good night life.
love, piggy (:
p.s. stop procrastinating. JUST F***ING DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Impasse
Like a fallen star in the darkest night
There won’t be happily ever after when there never was a once upon a time…
And so she lived by her own till the end of life. The end
She can’t do this anymore. It requires more strength than one has ever imagined. As time catches up, the strength to withstand such testimonies falter. Perhaps she should stop loving and giving… the repeating cycle is giving her much pain than she thought she could endure.
She just couldn't stop, her feet keeps running till the end of time, in hope, still have the courage to believe in what she has been adhering to all these times.
[signed 29 July 2008]
***
Today...
I'm upset, for the things that I did not do and the things that I did.
I'm upset, listening to the things that I do not wished to hear.
I'm upset, to be called dumb & to be doubted of my capability & ability.
On top of it all, I'm upset to be in this alone, by myself.
SIGHS... oh well, I can handle this, it's just a trivial obstacle in life, I can do it. Honestly, I think running a 10km marathon is much easier than this, perhaps conquering the mt. Kinabalu would be easier too. Anyways, my one-week Redang trip is coming soon... yes, I will be going by bus, again. Wish me the best (: life is not too bad oh well at least I can still rationalize things for myself. Until the day I crack, someone please find me a lovely crazy cell-mate.
with love, piggy
Monday, August 04, 2008
SHAPE RUN 2008
Not very glamorous shots or whatsoever, but yeah this is the piggy running her 10km run (: which she managed to finish in her own record time 1hr20mins.
Yes she knows she's fat. SHUT UP. :P bleah haha.
Yes she knows she's fat. SHUT UP. :P bleah haha.
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