good begets good

That's how the universe is :) and once again, life is good, I hope that it only gets better, one way or another.

Despite how selfish human beings are, how dysfunctional society has become, the fundamental universal law holds - good begets good.

I'm very thankful for the great, friendly and nice people that I have met along the way. The people who have extended their help in one way or another. The people who have made me to who I am today. And most of all, the people who has given me opportunity to be myself, liking me for who I am, and to be truthful and sincere to me, even it means to tell me off right at my face. I really appreciate that. (:

Transfer that little happiness to someone, something, anyone, anything. Pay it forward. Goodness will come around the corner before you know it.

Our world needs a little kindness :)

Love,

Jo

Life as a student, again

I'm in the library, supposed to be studying, but well, obviously, I'm not. One month ago, I would not know what it is like to be as only just a student, or as a jobless person, or to know what's on TV in the day. One month ago, I was still fighting my ass off to wake up at unearthly hour, and now here I am, time is with me, or is it really so?

I get lots of questions, like "why did you leave your job before securing another one?", "why are you studying again?", "why do you go travel alone?", "are you being emo? are you ok?", "so are you looking for a job? have you found one?"

I have only one answer to all the "why"s questions. :) WHY NOT?

Of course I'm ok, more than ok (: I'm at peace. yes I'm looking for a job, and no, I have not found one.

"are you worried that you'll never get a job?"

No I'm not worried, what's the worst can it be? I can wait the tables if times are desperate.

"Seriously?"

Seriously.

As for now, I'm a student. It felt great to be having lunch in the school canteen, though I must admit I felt a bit old to be amongst the kids and their conversations made me smile, thinking of the good old days. Gone were the days that I was a full-time student. Haha.

Life is good for me now. But it won't be long, eventually I would still need to get out of this shelter and go out and fight the world haha for survival.

Ok till my next post, bye peeps.

Love, Jo

Dilemma

We face many options in life, there are many cross roads, sometimes it is more than just left or right, or left right forward or back, or left right and three quarter, or even spider webs kind of paths.

And now, here I am, in the most basic form of all, yes or no? Ultimately, it all boils down to just 2 choices.

So I started asking myself mind boggling questions (these crazy questions just come swimming into my head) like:

"What do I want to achieve in life?"

"Is it wealth? health? joy? peace? more time? fame?"

"Do I care about other people's judments?"

"What do they think?"

"Am I wasting my time? money? effort?"

"Am I wasting my education? my life?"

"Am I avoiding the obvious challenge?"

"Am I merely choosing the easier option?" "If so, what's wrong?" "If not, why not?"

"Should I wait a little longer?"

"Should I consult more people? Should I ask my mother? my father? my husband? my wife? my best friend?"

"What happened to asking myself what do I want?"

"Do I know what do I want?"

'Or do you just think you know what you want?'

"Should I consider other people's benefits into making my decision?"

"What happens if I choose this, will she be happy? Will he be disappointed?"

"What happened to the question 'will I be happy?'"

This is CRAZY. Most of the time, people would just end up stuck in The Waiting Place. (I quoted Dr.Seuss twice)

Seriously, big chunk of it is about worrying what would people think, of which, I have zero control of.

Anyway, as of now, I still have to wait for a reply, and then I will have my yes or no.

p.s. today is going to be a good good day (: cos I have a slight revelation. haha, keep it up!

Hello World (:

Everything seems a little different when someone starts something new at the beginning.

I woke up this morning feeling strange, the fact that I'm officially an unemployed, zero cashflow in, with so much of fix cashflow out. Wow, it's scary. And I wonder, how do ppl survive having gap year. No, I'm not having a gap year, probably months. It depends how soon water run dries in the bank. Oops. Let's not even start thinking about it for the moment.

Ok, so it's my first day of a new life. Nothing much interesting, spent time cleaning up my mess the whole morning, and I got tired, and decided to procrastinate a little and so here I am, rambling my thoughts away.

New life is going to start with some reflections of the past, in the island of Bali, (: also my marked virgin solo trip to a place where I have not been to, do not know anyone there, and do not really fully understand the local language, and hmm, the trip is pretty much unplanned. haha, except flights and accommodation. Well, hope all turns out alright and well, and I'll update when I'm back.

So, that's pretty much about it, and I ought to get back to cleaning. BTW, I'm still boring, who will ever find this interesting anyway. at this point, I'm already bored reading what I've written.

Outta here now. bye (:

LOVES