officially a MAC user (:

Piggy owns a MacBook Pro as of now (:

top of the world... almost

that's how it's like to be over 13,400 feet above sea level on the summit of Mount Kinabalu. Amazing (:

xoxo, Jo

call me Ashima

Ashima Menon (pronounce as May-known), and Ashima, well, is Ashima.

Oh and to be one of the smartest around is definitely not a good thing, try living with the idiots, you'll understand, if not then congratulations, you are one of them, which is not a bad thing at all, seriously, you'll probably be far of happier in life. LOL.

Piggy completed 10km this time break her own record by 3 minutes! (: pleased haha.

Went to Cameron Highlands, had tea and scones, steamboat, strawberries (: lovely place... though the road was indeed winding.

Am going to climb Mt. Kinabalu, finally, this Sunday ((:

Momentarily, work is out of the equation, at least until I come back from my holiday :p am getting the hell out of this hell of a crazy million-people cell.

Farewell, till we meet again.

Hugs (: Ashima

PINK

is the color and theme for this year's Shape Run, and yes piggy is in! Hmm... have no idea if she can complete the 10km this year. Haha.

Passed drving theory test on first attempt (: She is pleased.

Will be going on road trip next holiday, should be fun (: excited!

Health is not doing so well, not really rosy pink, but not fading either, at least she doesn't think so. Probably age is catching up, anyway will still continue exercising.

Completed 2 courses of kickboxing, enjoyed the classes a lot. Now looking for other cool classes to enrol :)

I want a MACBOOK! Oh and actually, am just writing just for the sake of fun haha!

*wink* loves, piggy.

whatever

Even if the whole world walks out the last man standing has to hold on till he falters...

murphy's law

It was a day of possibilities, accidental incidents, domino effects et cetera. And I thought, life is indeed amazing.

Any possible things that may go wrong, will go wrong.

idiosyncrasy

was it my idiosyncrasy or naivety or lacking in sensibility?

Seriously, can I be that dumb that I have lost the ability of making myself understood and being understood?

Apathy WILL kill me.

Do you think you can help me? Please give me a sign. Should I follow your footstep?

Swine flu probably is the solution to put an end to all never ending nonsense.

why do people seek approval from society?

I do not know why, and I need someone to tell me their answers. Secretly, am just hoping that people do not have to conform to society's needs, wants and beliefs.

Where does simplicity comes into in the picture then?

Joanne needs a place of her own, seriously... with air conditioning, a nice kitchen with an oven, a desk of her own, a queen sized bed with comforter, bookshelves full of her favorite books, photos hanging on the walls, her fully owned wardrobe etc. etc.

She dreamed a dream :) but life has killed her dream ):

I dreamed a dream

A current song that I would like to share with everyone. I dreamed a dream, sung by a 47-year old villager who sang at Brit got talent (:

There was a time, when men were kind
And their voices were soft
And their words were inviting
There was a time, when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my dreams with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

one day at a time

Just one day at a time... step by step.

I remember talking about growing up, how much I dislike the adult world, and also discussed about my resistence to change and to adapt to the complicated boring uncool adult world. (ok, so to some people it is cool) Well, being in the working world for 19 months and counting, I still feel the same.

Let's not even talk about appreciations, what about resentment? That's the one thing that I do not understand, you know what, is true, just mind your own business. You'll live. unscathed. People do not love you, people do not hate you, people sometimes might love you.

If you were to do something extra, to help, well, people might love you, people might hate you, people do not appreciate your help, what's worse? People might hate you for helping.

So yeah, all those morals you learn in those childhood years? Not applicable. To live in an adult world, Joanne just have to take it one step at a time. Don't even try talking, might just utter the wrong syllable and get glared at. So why bother right?

(: cheers to my world. Is okay if it only contains me and myself... lest I'm happy when I can be me, even if is only for an hour a day.

One day at a time... just need to wait for that day to come, I will be free like a bird. Though technically, piggy cannot turn into a bird haha nor do pigs fly... but then pigs can fly, if they are put in a plane (: or a helicopter.

Stop, Joanne, stop.

Yes, I'm at work, lunch break, having a silent monologue by myself. Good day to everyone. HUGS. Remember one day at a time (:

I'm back here again, ranting away...

I think I now know why Singaporeans love to rant, it's everything here that makes them want to rant.

Yes, I'm sitting here in front of my pc, suppose to be doing some quotations but no, obviously not, I am here typing away on a long hiatus blog. The thought that I have a blog somewhere in the vast world wide web sparked me to revive it. So yeah...

Anyways, I have been to Siem Reap, Cambodia, really great place to visit, cheap beer!! USD0.50 per mug of Anchor draft beer. Heh! And food is cheap and nice too (: the scenery, breathtaking. Well, I'm bit disappointed not able to conquer Mt. Kinabalu, they had some maintenance going on ): BUT, Joanne did water rafting! (: Thrilling FUN. Arms were aching for the next 2 days. Joanne also went to Manukan Island, nice beach, but not so much of marine life as compared to Redang Island.

Joanne passed Certificate in Negotiation Skill (which she thinks is easy peasy), and also passed JLPT4 (: She is pleased indeed.

Oh, and she has been climbing up 11 storeys of stairs daily (ok, almost daily). And, she is transferred to Sales Department. And no, it is NOT a promotion.

By the way, have I mentioned I got a beater cum mixer as Christmas present from my mum? Haha... lovely. Now, I just need to get an oven, and Joanne can start her baking business! ((:

Actually I'm not all "smiley", is a foul day at work, like every other day. Shits, I have not been writing for months, and I think I'm just crapping away here on nothing. I'm so counting down on my days here seriously... 510 days and I'm a free person. ENDURE!

Joanne will try to post more regularly, even if I'm the only reader to this blog. *mwahs* love

Lunch in

Thus, the spare time to blog.

Life is just living by day to day nowadays. Planning for vacation is my new hobby. I'm going to Cambodia on 19 Feb 2009 - 23 Feb 2009, which means I'll be missing the coming VV'09. Sorry peeps, Joanne only found out like last weekend about this. And the flight has been booked earlier.

Working is like... let's not even get that started.

Jo is happy that she is going home to see everyone this weekend (: too bad Joyce won't be back.

She still has the urge to flee every now and then, wonder how long can she stay grounded in life. Anyways, life is really too short to fret and worry.

Love life, live life, enjoy life. (:

...

nothing much really.

how do one fills in the blanks in life? so many yet so little and so insignificant. if you scrutinize properly it seems like everything is just so trivial.

2 months of absence. I've no idea what to write after so long... give Joanne some time to pick it back up.

love, piggy (:

p.s. I miss you Joyce.

chicken soup for the soul

A warm bowl of chicken soup is exactly what I needed (:

The heart is unsettled recently, probably of the recent happenings that confuse my thoughts. Health has not been in bright pink, I wonder when did blue take over. Stomach and the chest ain't in really good terms with each other in the recent weeks. Sometimes I deploy Charcoal to make peace between the 2, it doesn't work all the time, but most of the time, it does. Increasing external stress is not helping either, like adding wood into the fire. So stop it please!

Doesn't make sense? It's alright. This is Joanne's talk.

Have been craving for a warm bowl of soup for the past few days, but never got one until today, I decided to head down to the mart to buy the soup's ingredient and made myself a pot of hot chicken soup. (: And lovely it was...

p.s.: Thank you for the company & the pair of warm hands last night.
p.p.s.: I'm leaving for Redang for a whole week.

(: love, piggy.

I didn't realize

how much I missed the life I have left behind... it was lovely indeed seeing my cousins and family gathered together. Although not all of them are home, but it was nice to see people that you once spent your time playing, fighting and doing all things with.. are together again once more (: [25-08-2008 2317hr]

how much I have changed within the past 12 months...

that I'm capable of doing the things that I never thought I would ever have the courage nor the ability to accomplish...

things can get so stifling.. to be pushed to the brink is not exactly the best scenery one could imagine it'd be... free falling not knowing what's under can be rather scary

one day I would, too, be afraid.

Recognition of fear needs much bravery... and to concede defeat needs much humbleness.

everyone is just pretty much like everyone else. [31-08-2008 0124hr - P.S. MERDEKA] (:

procrastination kills

and so that's why she's dying... so help me please.

You know how people say about not giving up and doing your best and the good one will come along? People do believe, and they do want to believe, but there comes a point where all things point to the other side of everything.

Some say humans by nature are evil, some say are kind... so what about the first sin of mankind, Adam & Eve. And so what I'd say? Honestly I don't give a shit about Adam or Eve or anyone else eons ago for that matter. I mean... seriously? Seriously.

Me? I'm exceptional, some dumb kid who is trapped in her own illusion that all things are still nice and beautiful no matter how wrecked they looked. LOL. Oh my goodness, I'm retarded am I not? Anyway, I beg to differ what my friends said today... I believe humans are kind by nature, people turn to the dark side for survival, people are succumbed by pride, power etc. I don't know. Perhaps I'm wrong, or there won't be any right or wrong for that matter.

Familiarity breeds contempt is not untrue, but is not what I live for to believe.

Work is just work. Life is a whole big picture by itself. And work is merely a small section in the entire life.

I have no idea what am I babbling here... better go off to bed.

How do you love a person again? How do you know he or she is not the last person you'd fall in love with?

No, I'm not in love, it's just random. I've been speaking nonsensical lately. Ask me a question I'll give you numbers, and when you strike any lottery ticket, let's do a 30:70 split. (:

Joanne, seriously, go, just go, sleep. (: Good night life.

love, piggy (:

p.s. stop procrastinating. JUST F***ING DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO.

Impasse

Like a fallen star in the darkest night

There won’t be happily ever after when there never was a once upon a time…

And so she lived by her own till the end of life. The end

She can’t do this anymore. It requires more strength than one has ever imagined. As time catches up, the strength to withstand such testimonies falter. Perhaps she should stop loving and giving… the repeating cycle is giving her much pain than she thought she could endure.

She just couldn't stop, her feet keeps running till the end of time, in hope, still have the courage to believe in what she has been adhering to all these times.

[signed 29 July 2008]

***

Today...

I'm upset, for the things that I did not do and the things that I did.

I'm upset, listening to the things that I do not wished to hear.

I'm upset, to be called dumb & to be doubted of my capability & ability.

On top of it all, I'm upset to be in this alone, by myself.

SIGHS... oh well, I can handle this, it's just a trivial obstacle in life, I can do it. Honestly, I think running a 10km marathon is much easier than this, perhaps conquering the mt. Kinabalu would be easier too. Anyways, my one-week Redang trip is coming soon... yes, I will be going by bus, again. Wish me the best (: life is not too bad oh well at least I can still rationalize things for myself. Until the day I crack, someone please find me a lovely crazy cell-mate.

with love, piggy

SHAPE RUN 2008

Not very glamorous shots or whatsoever, but yeah this is the piggy running her 10km run (: which she managed to finish in her own record time 1hr20mins.
Yes she knows she's fat. SHUT UP. :P bleah haha.

MR. BIG

If only there is one for every woman... and oh not to forget the gays too (:

and she did it (:

This piggy ran 10km in approx 1 hr 20mins (: non-stop. It's in the record of piggy's achievements to date.

HAPPY (: She's happy, really. and she got to thank SinHui for talking her into running 10km instead of 5km, for believing in her.

met Gina in the Padang too, one of my running buddies when I was still in NUS. Thanks to her too, for being my running partner despite being the slow one all the time.

Quite few decisions have to be made soon but I think I can handle it. (: should I do it now or next year? plans have to be made.. lest direction has to be set. About time to book and plan for mount climbing trip as well (:

Perhaps she'd go for the next Great Eastern All Women run in Oct.

Indeed life has been happier, less miserable, or rather, more fulfilled with busy schedules.

Yes life sucks, but it's just the matter of how you look at it. I miss home, and there's one thing that I still cling onto hope for, which is to go home happily to where I live. Don't think that's going to happen soon, not in the next 9 months. I'm looking forward to a good change that's it.

p.s. The Dark Knight is AWESOME (: it's a MUST watch.