some updates

Well, my friend & I have been on a mini investigating mission. I'd say we are too nosy & free, nothing better but to bitch about other people's life? Haha. Anyway, it was rather fun, well, case is solved, oh well, more or less. Due to sensitivity of the issue, the case has to call to a halt & file closed. *grins* So fun! Haha, we should dig up another case and do it again. I'm proud of my skills, but of course, you are way much better!

It's amusing to interview people and get all point of view on a same subject. I discover that most of the time people only choose to believe what they want to believe. No matter how clear the truth is placed before them, people most of the time will choose to be clouded & stay in their denial state. On the same subject matter, you'll get total opposite views & stories! amazing huh, humans! *winks*

Anyway, point is, being different is part of life. Everyone is unique in their own ways. Yes, you can't compare an apple and an orange! (nor a papaya :p) Some people just happen to click with us, some people just don't but I do know people who are friendly to everyone! That's cool. really.

What's got into me again? I have no idea. Such fluctuations of mood, weird piggy! Haha. Some updates on me, should stop posting ridiculous entries but narrative ones like this is boring. Well... don't bother. :p

Oh I'm still feeling sleepy all the time yes, and my backs are still aching lack of rest I guess and not enough sleep. I wasn't all too worked up for my 2 tests today, good thing? Both were okay I guess though I'm not sure I did well in both of the papers. Bah... screw it, it's over.

FYP still the same, haha waiting for the D Day to arrive and decide my destiny. So exciting!

And, no, I don't have a bf, and, for the nth times stop asking me to look for a bf. Now, I kinda regret I didn't get one earlier hahaha. Nah, I'm talking nonsense here. :) *ignore me*

CNY was ok, kinda quiet this year, it is never the same without him celebrating with us. I can just sense that everything is falling apart, but yes, we are trying to hold things together but how long can it last, I have absolutely no idea. Anyway I'm pretty sure everything won't turn that bad since grandma is still around. Thank goodness she recovered! *smiles* can start scolding people meaning great improvement though still couldn't really walk by herself. Oh well, it was a miracle she could recover, I am absolutely grateful for that.

Happy that manage to catch up with some old friends. =) Here's a pic of us, sad, there are only 9 of us... Met up with 2 best friends of mine too, but no pictures :( oh man, I should really get a digital camera or at least a 2.0megapixel camera phone haha... no money, poor girl I am.


Last Saturday, went to Ratu's house! Ya, went alone... raja & PM didn't go, half expected anyway. Thanks a lot dear ratu *hugs* for the lunch, food, fortune cookie, car ride to mrt, everything! =) Come my place next holiday! And yes, Melaka is a nice place, although city people think it's a boring "kampung" :p nevertheless, I live near the beach, it's beautiful :) especially in the evening!

Sunday, went to another friend's house, we had a little CNY gathering with steamboat and mahjong. It was really great to see you guys & girls again, I rarely see my friends now in year 4 it's like everyone is leading their own uni life, busy with their own FYPs, no more common modules, we don't even lunch together anymore. So ya, it's good to get together again! Thanks peeps! And these are my coursemates...


Going to my best friend's place tmr night for another CNY gathering. Am quite busy with work and everything, but I should go meet up with old friends, feeling bit guilty, I rarely make an effort to keep in touch, sorry ya... I shouldn't just stay in NUS with my books all the time. My grades won't improve any further... it's sad fact, I've accepted that.

Bah... what a long and boring lengthy entry... hahaha... don't care. I'm not even reading it thru again to edit it. too lazy. that explains why I'm a piggy. :p Well, I shall change everything to small font to save space & stop writing rubbish.

Take care everyone!

To mummy & everyone at home, take care too, love piggy *hugs*

3 men

1. You gave me joy & confidence in life. You taught me love.

I miss you a lot. Every time I wish for the unreasonable and impossible, when will I ever grow up? Life goes on, girl... everything will be all right no matter what. I know you will always look over us all the time, always. *love*


2. You give me everything the best you could. You taught me respect.

I don't understand you sometimes. But you have been trying to be a better person & I know it. Everyone does & Everyone can tell. *hugs* Thank you for everything and we all love you no matter what.


3. You give me what I fail to give myself. You taught me patience.

I think I am falling for something which is not even there, am I? It is ridiculous but I am certain of what am I going through. I will be alright. You may not be part of the equation in my life but you have indeed made a mark in it. *smiles* I am grateful for that.

hope.love.family

Hope.
despite the uncertainties
I'm still hanging onto the slightest hope
like the only flower that survived the storm
I silently wish & hope
for the sunshine

Love.

Family.
where love never cease to exist
never ending supplies of love, hugs & affections
my best refuge.

behind the fortress

I love this picture haha... since when I'm so morbid? No idea. Perhaps it is always been inside of me. :p

"Talking to you is like pulling teeth, and I am running out of teeth"

But why?

I think I love to talk so much that I would still talk even though I've lost all my teeth. Perhaps it is time to really seriously adopt silence, else I'll lose all my teeth soon enough.

My interpretation of this photo:

"Don't mess around with me!" Brave girl who ain't afraid of anything not even tooth extraction.

Behind the strong fortress
it is bleeding inside
but the battle is still on
fighting for rights
chasing hopes
realizing dreams
even if ended up scarred
there will always be sanctuary
within the citadel

:)

Ordinary Valentine's :)

It is just another ordinary day, couldn't have been more ordinary. What about Valentine's? Nothing about it. *smiles*

People feel intimidated on this day, afraid of spending time alone, afraid of being cast the pity look by loving couples, afraid of being uninvited, afraid of being left out alone, afraid of whatever reason? No idea haha!

Anyway, the irony is there was no one in the lab this evening. By 6pm everyone was GONE! Surprised. Usually people even come and work on Sunday and stay till late night, wow... I can't help but to think St Valentine's have such great powers haha... Funny that I find it amusing though.

Love is definitely not in the air for me. I give up. It has always been unrequited. Period.

Cynical is just the word to describe me. :p Lovey-dovey, mushy-teary emotional love soaps just ain't my cup of tea, practical person I am. Sorry, not a romantic.

What about Valentine's then? Just another ordinary day, work still goes on, people still eat, drink, shit, as per normal. There are deadlines still, tests, assignments, and whatever else... By the time you realized it's already 15th Feb, makes you wonder, 14th Feb was just another day.

"Let me get you roses
with boxes of chocolate
accompanied with hugs & kisses
gesture of showing my love for you
on this special day"

No thanks my dear,
I don't need all those
I'd rather spend the rest of 364 days
just you and me
walking through the journey of life

One day if we ever reach crossroads
and decided we should lead different paths
we shall still remain as best of friends forever


*smiles*

piggy sends out her love to everyone *hugs*

Happy V Day!

wish everyone a happy & LOVEly day every day! (not only on this commercialized day) *smiles*

=)

hugs with love,
piggy.

And so it goes

I have a sudden urge to buy an electric piano. should I? haha...

"If it makes you happy... why not?" thanks girl *hugs* I should seriously consider about it.

It's time to listen to the whispers of my heart...
what is it that I really want out of my life

"We can never make a living out of our passion... even if we do, we might end up killing it. Perhaps too busy working for money, and doing out more of responsibility rather than passion." Yeah, I guess you are right too. *smiles* We should develop our interest besides our boring work life.

"loads of vitamins L & A for you!" thanks queen!! *hugs tight* same to you too.

Even though this is a sucky semester, but at least I've lived my dream. I met really nice people. I revived my interest for soccer. I am determined to brush up on my piano skills. I can do basic conversation in Japanese! I have been to the top and reached the rock bottom. I laughed and I cried. I experienced the extremes. I went through the hardest times alone and with loved ones. There are more to come... and I'm sure we will all just do fine.

I think I have passed that stage too... can't give more a damn about FYP. It's just plain stupid. *oops* It's just something to make life difficult for final years. Last torment of the university years.

Yes dear, am still waiting for the sunshine after rain... the first dawn of rainbow *smiles* and so it goes, and so it goes, and you're the only one who knows..

still in silence

Thank you girl for listening me out, to my full load of crap. *hugs*

Really... it meant a lot to me. I'm not being emotional here.. I hate emotional stuff, makes you all teary and jerky :p Anyway, thanks!!

I'm not a very nice person, but I think I am not a bad person to start with haha... oops, I will be all right. Like I always say, life is all about learning and growing... what's joy without sorrow? happiness without pain?

Nights are the hardest to get over with. But eventually everything is going to be okay...

Silence is still my best defense and I think I should adopt that. It's the best. :)

p.s.: I shall catch up with you someday. just the 2 of us. *smiles*

p.p.s.: I should catch up with other people too... been neglecting lots of you peeps. sorry. what was I thinking??? f*** FYP, I need my life back! haha... and since I can't get someone to halve my stress/agony, I shall seek for my well being myself! should not let myself dwell into further and end up a bitter girl *wink*

silence is my best defense

I will learn to keep silence
I felt the pain... silence is all I give in return
laughter is my best disguise
in hope someday all these pretense will cease

words...

"at least you go to lab every day to do your work..."
-yes, I do but that doesn't give me the privilege of not obtaining results-

"sorry, I can't help you..."
-no one could-

"don't stress, you'll do fine.."
-fine or otherwise is yet to be known for sure, but stress is present regardlessly, & it's critical level stress!-

"Everything will come to an end soon.. just hang on."
-I will hang on till my last breath if I could, but how long can I hold on?-

"if no results then how?"
-I have no idea-

I appreciate all your concerns, honest. *hugs* Oh and this is my favorite..

"I can't help you do lab, but I'll print my photo & you can put it in the lab; whenever you are stressed, just look at me! it'll cheer you up!"
-Haha, my first genuine laugh for the week-

Thank you!

I may not be in the best of moods; nevertheless, thank you all. *smiles*

I'm going to be okay

What's going to happen?
What does the future hold?
So many things that I put off
Assuming I'd have time, assuming I'd grow old
What's going to happen?
And will I be alive tomorrow?
What's going to happen...to me?

You're going to be okay

That's what's going to happen
Everything's okay
We're right here beside you
We won't let you slip away
Plan for tomorrow
'Cause we swear to you
You're going to be okay

I'm going to be okay

That's what's going to happen

Everything's okay

Everything's okay
We will never leave you
Right here we will stay
(Plan for tomorrow)
Plan for tomorrow
'Cause we swear to you
You're going to be okay

We hope

Shhhhh.....

-from Scrubs "My Musical"-

Thanks, assurance is all I need *hugs*