I don't know why

am all for Norah Jones again... don't ask me why. I don't know why (:

would love to write more but it requires too much thinking and brain processing. Life has not permit me to have the luxury of so much 'me' time, I've trade it off with the gods of money & work. I have lots to write, but everything is incoherent and disorganized. We'll wait and see, a day when Joanne is free to sit down, think & write in proper. Till then, take care people!

Joanne misses her family, her friends, and she loves them all muchly. HUGS.

The long day is over (: or is it? A long & busy week ahead... oh well :) I'll be just fine.

"Have A Nice Day"

is a happy song, don't know why suddenly am listening to Stereophonics haha.

Joanne is really busy & bitchy.

Don't ask why, I have no answer either. I shall update more when I have time... I just wish we can buy time. Haha.. ok I have to sleep my eyes are shutting. It was a long day but good ending (: woke up at 6am, went to work, left at 2pm, went for tuition, reached home at 4.50pm showered then left for crazy's medicine note. Classical night (: I enjoyed the performances, how I wish I can play the piano half like the pianist!

ok, I need to sleep. My brain is not working anymore. good night. Have a Nice Day! Waltzing Matilda! Nice songs!! :) Thanks. HUGS.

and I'm still grinning

(: *big smile*

It has been a pleasant day.

Joanne was the first to wake up in the house, went tuition. (:

I was glad I started my day early, did quite many things today... tuition, some housework, ironing, studying, movie (HAIRSPRAY, finally haha) and now am back, going to continue studying before going to bed.

Movie was AWESOME (: and I'm still grinning while listening to the songs.

Okay, study time! Work may not be entirely great, but it keeps me going which is good. Still living on my dream, waiting for the day where I can do the things I love and earn money from it, that would be PERFECT and patience is what I have.

Someday I'll find it, my rainbow connection~ and to my dear readers, I wish you all will find yours too (: love, Joanne

Busy bUsy & buSy

First thing first, Joanne is NOT emo ok (: Thank you very much to all of you! mwah!

Although tiring and busy, I try to meet up with friends still and catch up with their lives. Thanks mum everyone at home *LOVES piggy* the CBK darlings *HUGS* crazies, uncles, aunties, bimbos, & of course xmy! Oh and "Happy Birthday" to shushan & xiugui!

Ok, so, first week of work, first few days were boring, yeah, I had to seek refuge in toilet to steal some sleep haha.. oops. Bad. Today, work load is piling up, got few urgent projects... feeling the stress now and seriously I do not know where to find time to finish so many things. Well, I'll survive, somehow. It's just work and I'll just think of the monetary benefits I'll get by the end of the month :) Good enough motivation.

I just registered for CFA. That is like around $1800. I MUST pass my CFA level 1 in Dec 2007. That means after work, rest a bit, study! Haha... sounds exciting. I don't know how am I going to do it, but I just have to. The sum has already been paid, I HAVE to pass.

My tutee is still failing his English... how? Sad. He's like my buddy now, and I call him uncle Tan too sometimes. Haha, because he always complains tired & whine, like an old man. He's panicking now... I hope he can pass his exam, I'm doing whatever I can. sigh.

Choir is good and de-stressing. Now I know what's working life is like, it's tiring, seriously, it is. I'm always sleeping on public transport nowadays haha... just now I felt like heading back to sleep & skip choir but still, I went for choir. It feels good singing with the choir though we don't really sound fantastic but yeah, good de-stresser.

Just some updates.. probably write more in proper & more organized when I'm less tired. (:

my mum is the coolest (:

Seriously, she is. (: and damn funny too. Haha. Now I know where I got my lameness from. Oops.

I will try to keep my moods as stable as possible. And again, I am okay.

Funny how my mum asked about it... made me wonder. I've never really thought about it. Seriously, no one actually cares. Sometimes I just feel like I'm living alone. The job gives me the money. And yes, I'm happy about the money coming in. But in reality, life is actually more than just bringing in money right.

Mummy, I want a car too! Haha. And to my dearest mum, thanks for everything. I enjoyed the chat. (: always do. Cheered me up. *smiles* and I feel loved.

love, piggy~

p.s. wanted to go out today... but, did not. watched rented movie "The Queen" instead. Nice movie (:

I'm employed

just for the record.

Nothing much to say about it. Nothing glamorous or cool, not fantastic pay but point is, it pays. I need the money.

Happiness has worn out. Life's irony.

(:

somewhat happier entry

Life has not thrown me a pleasant surprise, yet.

Happier because I'm laughing more but I feel bad, laughing at other people. Omg seriously, how bitchy can you get Joanne? Yes I'm one hell of a bitch.

Ok, crap aside, I'm happy because I managed to catch up with people, studied a bit, talked to mum on MSN (yes I know, coolest mum I have, haha), being a little indifferent (yes I regard that as something to be happy about :p). I got interviews too. Not that I've gotten any jobs offer, but yes, good things come to those who wait. I seriously hope so, else Joanne is going to enter another phase of depression.

Please don't jinx my job applications, please. Thanks.

Despite the fact that I'm losing sleep because I'm losing the grip of life, I still try to keep my optimism high, I don't know what do I feed my optimism but yeah, I use happy songs & good reads, since I don't have money for happy food. Sometimes I get crazy and happy companies too and those are my life bonuses! (:

Life can be suffocating but yeah Joanne is surviving. Life is never all nice and beautiful, feeling stifled at times but still moving on just fine. So yeah, Joanne is ok (: all she has to do is just keep breathing.

Joanne is still working on the communication problem, she has no idea how, and sometimes she feels that she should just not give a damn. Maybe she shouldn't try so hard, life might be easier on her perhaps.

Oh I received a Teacher's Day present from my tutee haha. English is definitely not easy to teach, how does one teach vocabularies? Help me. And they even have Mark Twain's work as cloze passage now, I can't even comprehend the whole article at first read. I know I suck. I try my best to help him. Don't mention about words like kleptomaniac, biblioklept, stoic etc. appearing in questions, I have to do homework before going for classes, seriously.

Well, Joanne is still very much an idealistic. Although things have changed, she would very much hope things would always stay as good as before. But then again, everyone has moved on, so perhaps she should too.

Being indifferent is good. Seriously, Joanne, get a job & a life. Yes, I know. And I should really stop talking to myself. crazy Joanne. Apparently Joanne is not only crazy, she's retarded too according to crazy Amanda. Haha!

*am listening to Waltzing Matilda - cheer-up song (:*

Have a good day! HUGS.