I'm amused!

"Have you got a boyfriend?"
"No."
"I don't believe you."
Do I have "I have a boyfriend" written all over my face? What's so hard to believe haha. Uncle refused to believe. Aunt wasn't really convinced either. I need to get rid of that look, whatever that look is. :p

By the way I got THE question today! "Have you found a job yet?" Got it several times, I predict to hear more of them later since am going to meet up with friends for dinner.

"Have you found a job yet?"
"No. still looking, went for few interviews."
"What interviews?"
"I went for a bank interview."
"Huh, why bank?" gave me the VERY surprised look. It's not that I don't want engineering job, but I wasn't called for interview, not my fault. *frowns* Banks are not that bad what, not that I'm working at the river banks. Stressful ya, what job is not?

Haha, I'm lazy to write down the whole conversation. It's pretty much the same. I could just have the conversation by myself.

By the way, I just baked a cake. :) happy.

This morning, ah ma pulled out her dialysis tube half way through the process, blood spurted out and dirtied the place and her all over. sigh. troubled the nurses there, again. Anyway, rushed down to hospital in the morning with aunt to send her clean clothes.

Got my new IC. "Kaunter Perkahwinan & Perceraian" [marriage & divorce counter] is at the same department too haha. It's funny and amusing to see couples coming in for registration. :p

Oh, I had durians & rambutans! very nice. :) Mum bought small shrimps too. Yummy!

So far holidays have been good. Not letting anyone or anything to ruin it. *smiles* Happy Holidays.

commencement

Commenced! The beginning of many beginnings.
Thank you mummy and daddy and bro :)
Thanks Joyce too I know you want to be here as well.
Thanks to my darlings!
Thanks xiugui for the lilies.
BIG HUGS with LOVE from piggy (yours truly)

I will definitely miss all the good times & bad times we had
As much as I am reluctant to move on
I am forced to get on with life
can't always be with you guys
but I have only one last request
grant my last request let me hold you
promise me that things will not get worse if not better

I wish you guys all the best in school, work, choir, everything.
you can always find me back where I left.
the friendships, bonds, love that we've established is priceless.
& they already occupy a special place in Joanne's heart.
Farewell! to a new beginning. cheers.

innocence can never last

I learned to listen more these days
keeping the chatter box down than usual

I love to sing
I want to dance

Attended Denise's wedding today. For once I was touched by our singing, the Claire Benediction, people are actually listening to every word we sang, you could tell from their faces how much it meant to most of them. I had goosebumps. Yes I did. :) May Denise and Zachery have a happy married life. *hugs*

Yes, realized I won't frequent school that much after Thailand. I could. I want to. But there is no reason for me to. I will definitely miss RVR.

Nothing's wrong with me. It's just me. I'm Joanne. I treasure things a lot especially if it is special. I would do the same to everyone whom I care for. I never seek anything in return and I understand I couldn't expect everyone to be like me. It's okay.

Innocence can never last. It's wearing out. I can sense that it's depleting from my body. Perhaps that explains the more frequents deep thoughts etc. Maturity brings the cruel world to peopleeyes... and sometimes I wish I haven't seen the other side of mankind. It's the silent battle between friends, brothers and sisters are the scariest.

Let me sleep and don't wake me up even when September ends, can you? I'm officially tired. I know many others are more tired than me even. Even if I'm dead tired... this journey has to be continued. Rest, so that you can walk that extra mile. :)

ain't easy

life, I meant.

I tried. I'm tired. It's still in a mess.

Couldn't care to talk more these days. Not to mention the ceased of BHS. May my 2nd nature rest in peace. looking forward to your return. I wonder when will that be... hmm.

Superficiality tires the fuck out of me. Life is full of superficial. I hate it.

I should avoid crowd, really. I'm not in the mood at all to entertain people and put up an act.

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players.
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages."

--From As You Like It (II, vii, 139-143)


"Just be yourself", easy said than done. I guess it's human nature to create a good atmosphere around the people one is with. It's not about a huge pretense or conspiracy, it's the polite form of act to get life going, to make people feel good about themselves and others. Do you get what I mean? It's difficult to explain. Girls think too much, I know. Haha. :) Oh well, that's why I shall talk less these days. And if I'm just being quieter don't worry I'm perfectly fine. When circumstances or situations change, people change as well. And we can only hope that the changes are for the good if not better. :)

A long break home away from this city is what I need most. I'm so looking forward to the week break at home after Thailand.

*hugs* love.

alone in the middle of the night...

just finished Standard Chartered Application. Look at the time... such unearthly hour! Internet was down until almost 2am. fuck.

still a bit not so used to everything else. haven't uttered any BHS for days. I'm losing it, myself, I'm afraid.

Yes I am focusing on job hunting. Should resume job search again! After I get a job, I should start on bf hunt haha. one step at a time girl :) start earning money and start the dating game again.

HW is damn right, I really need a soccer therapy, will do me best. I know I am a perfectionist don't have to remind me so many damn times. explains what a loser I am.

It's 0341hr I should just go sleep... yes, I should. goodnight! *hugs*