Friday, May 19, 2006

teach me please

Option A: (earn 6MC and left with 26MC for the final year)
- continue working long hours(Saturdays half day) for 12 weeks till 28th Jul with allowance of RM10 a day.
- most of the time work == doing NOTHING. really nothing. the simplest way I can put it is, I sold my hours to the company for RM10 a day to just to make up the numbers. arghh!!! Days I have work to do are best I don't care even if it's photo-copying work!
- left with only one SU option to be used in semester 7 or never ever.

Option B: (32MC in the final year)
- continue working long hours (Saturdays half day) till end of June with allowance of RM10 a day.
- fail to earn 6MC but the working experience still makes my resume looks good.
- a month to catch up with life, holidaying, reading books, learn Jap & photoshop!! (a bit too big heart.. me.. siao!) -- my final 3-month vacation!
- 2 SU options left to be used in final year.

to whomever that is reading this:
teach me please... I'm so fickle minded. I'm very much settled with option B but option A is what most of the people are doing... see... peer pressure and influence!! damnit. Forget about the road less taken... grr... no time for poetry now.
haha... sorry if I sound too harsh. I guess I just want to get more views on this matter. I'm afraid I'm clouded by my own visions.

thank you to whomever that responds... I wonder who ever reads my blog anyway.. hmm..

Monday, May 08, 2006

1st day of internship

sucks!!

didn't even bother to say much about it.

I'm supposed to do classifications of parts in the store on a computer.. why? cos it's in a huge mess!! know what's the challenging part?? the computer. everything in it is in chinese (traditional)... woo-hoo!! superfabulicious!!! exciting!!! The files containing the inventories are disorganized as well.. oh well, that's what I'm for right.. to do the shit. yeah. fine. Seriously I dun mind at all.. really.

No, is no stress at work. but it just makes you feel more stupid. so damn boring.. to put it bluntly. I am paid RM10 per day to destroy my vacation... sad... I so feel like crying... please whoever is free come entertain this poor little girl... come visit me.. come talk kok to me.. come make me laugh like lark.. arghh.. I wanna be free like a bird!!!

Counting down my days to liberty...

Miss the choir peeps soo much... unagi & teriyaki are my source of entertainment now.. yes, and my beach... Joanne's beach. I go there every evening...

Tmr is only my 2nd day... 81 days to 28th July...

Sunday, May 07, 2006

undecided

gonna start working on Monday.. yes, it's tmr! grrr!!

My life for the next 2 or 3 months (undecided yet) working on Mon - Fri, 8am - 5.45pm; Sat 8am - 12noon. RM10 per day is all I get. Awesome!! I so look forward to such lucrative job and exciting holidays! WhAAAt.. argh!!

No vacation for me this hols.. can I at least squeeze in one or two short trips during weekends? I really hope I can work something out.

yeah, I think I shall just register and claim 6MC for my internship... after much thought and advices received.

I miss Singapore. yes, I actually feel that. the people. yeah. the NUS choir and a bunch of good hall mates.

really hope I can sing for FIC thsi time. though I'll be working like till the end of July... sigh.

Oh.. did I mention I missed my 1.30pm bus on Friday? haha.. stupid me. yep, but luckily I haven't paid for it. However, cab fare cost me a bomb in my pocket! I caught the 2pm bus home instead. Anyway, an Irish guy was seating next to me on my journey back.. and we chatted.. pleasant journey home I'd say.. got someone to talk to who shares common interests - travel, soccer and music! haha.. I'm quite enticed by his photos and stories of his backpacking in SEA the angkor wat especially. damn. I so want to go tour around Asia.. and it's not that expensive compared to other places. oh well.. I'll just wait for next hols then..

wait wait and wait... sigh.. when will that day even arrive.. so many things/opportunities passed by just because I wanted to wait. For what damn reason... I wouldn't really know. failed to convince myself sometimes.

What will one do when he reaches a stop? does he stop and rest or move on in hope to reach a better stop furtherdown the journey of life? it's hard to decide isn't it.. which point to stop in life and start a new journey.

I guess all of us learn through the hard way.. haha.. what hard way.. ambiguity again!! stupid girl me.

Alright.. will just stop here and cut all the crap!

the stars are my companion
I am lost in the woods
should I heed the stars
or whispers of the wind
or the nature calls of the woods
or the cries of the animals
or just to my heart
which is as agitated as it master

perhaps there never will be a correct path
maybe all options lead me out the woods
it may be a common end point
but different journey

how would one know which is the best
when one is lost...

life is a gamble when one is in the woods
do I heed the stars or whispers of the wind

silently I pray & wish for daylight to arrive.

=)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

plain day

woke up late... 10.30am. was reluctant to get up.

called Mr Kuah from LIKOM. ok, they said will give me my training schedule asap. keep my fingers crossed.

called transit link. I need to go Jurong East to do my Concession Card.

Apparently, I can suspend my mobile phone service.. cool. I didn't know that. haha.. anyway decided to go West Mall m1 customer service office to pay outstanding bill & further enquiries about my mobile phone plan service.

Ok, it's lunch time already. Too bad chaiyen was sick. couldn't meet for lunch. Vida had packed lunch. Angel was meeting someone else for lunch. Gina wasn't back yet. Gui was in Hougang. My msn list's people are either having exams, or away. hmm.. ok, haha.. Erik is online. try my luck. Great, had lunch with him, again, in Arts Canteen. =)

went to KR Terminal wanted to catch bus 183 to Jurong East. waited quite sometime.. I think they have terminated their service to stop at KR Ter. :S stupid me... I can't remember the last time I took 183. nvm. haha.

met Dr Julius at bus stop. haha.. it was something I've never done before. I had a casual talk with my lecturer!! wow.. haha. ok.. I'm not crazy. but yeah.. it's something new to me. His bus arrived and he left. :) interesting encounter.
yep, I want to learn Jap. and thanks for the encouragement. ok, haha.. I'll take your advice, perhaps I'll visit the Singapore Arts Musuem one day. ;) I can't help to say this, but Arts lecturers are different from
my usual Engineering lecturers.

183 never arrived. so I decided to go West Mall first, 189. alright.. what a boring narrative story of my day.. I decided to stop and shall not write on further.

Back in my room now. :) feeling quite contented with all things that have been done. hmm.. should I buy "The World Is Flat" promotional price $26.20 less 20%... that'd be $21!!! haha... ok, maybe I will.

*:) now.. night time.. hmm.. dunno what to do yet.. but yeah, will try to go for a run tonight! ciaoz.

untitled

As much as I'd like to do things I love
there's equally as much of me that wants to contradicts myself

Life is overwhelmed by emotions
excitements! disappointments...
happiness! sorrows...
the fun with crowd!
the loneliess of solitary...
surge of laughter!
streams of tears...

surprises, anticipations, predictabilities, nightmares...

Ahh.. mental block again!

loneliness in the middle of the night... Miss Lonely signs out. night... =)