transformation

remember your secondary math class where you learn transformation? translation, turn, reflection etc.

I used to love that lesson, simply because it is easy. Then when I entered college, transformation chapter gets more complicated, with all the functions, Laplace, oh my god, but I still love math, nonetheless.

In life, transformation is another whole new chapter entirely, a much unexplored field, or rather unstable field, because the only constant here is change. I do not know if it is a sad or happy thing, or rather, there's nothing to be happy nor sad about. Life changes, weather changes, and certainly, people change as well.

For better or worse, we always hope for the better; but if it is otherwise, we just have to count our blessings and move on with life looking forward for a better change.

Christmas is just round the corner, well, Merry Christmas everyone!

love xoxo,

JO

December Blues?

It's December now.

Things are not exactly bright this year, but we all survived, all right.

Office politics, work restructuring, house hunting, moving, work-personal life imbalance, serious lack of luck at work etc. All in all I still want to get out of here, very much.

People can never understand each other I think. Or, rather, I can never really understand anyone. Why do people form alliances at work? Why do people never have enough, and always ask for more? Why do people hate each other so much, yet hide the vicious behind a facade smile? Why do the stars go blue at times?

Joanne needs to save more money, cut down on entertainment, and unnecessary spendings. Most of all, she needs to get her first mil at work. freak. damn stressful. Do hope luck will turn well in 2010.

So help me please.

Gotta sleep now, and it's 10:38pm. Yes, I do need to sleep this early to wake up on time for work. Life is hard, and no, can't give up at this point just yet, not till I have round the world.

xoxo (:

*wanted* intelligent community

I feel stucked, stifled, suffocated, with a bunch of idiots trying to outsmart, outwit, and outkill each other. Hmm... is there such a word, outkill? well, anyway, it exists, at least for this short post. for this 1 minute of your time, just pretend, there is such a word. who cares about the meaning anyway.

I feel sick in my stomach.

If there's one thing I can wish for and to be granted, is to disappear, to somewhere that I can breathe, like a normal being.

officially a MAC user (:

Piggy owns a MacBook Pro as of now (:

top of the world... almost

that's how it's like to be over 13,400 feet above sea level on the summit of Mount Kinabalu. Amazing (:

xoxo, Jo

call me Ashima

Ashima Menon (pronounce as May-known), and Ashima, well, is Ashima.

Oh and to be one of the smartest around is definitely not a good thing, try living with the idiots, you'll understand, if not then congratulations, you are one of them, which is not a bad thing at all, seriously, you'll probably be far of happier in life. LOL.

Piggy completed 10km this time break her own record by 3 minutes! (: pleased haha.

Went to Cameron Highlands, had tea and scones, steamboat, strawberries (: lovely place... though the road was indeed winding.

Am going to climb Mt. Kinabalu, finally, this Sunday ((:

Momentarily, work is out of the equation, at least until I come back from my holiday :p am getting the hell out of this hell of a crazy million-people cell.

Farewell, till we meet again.

Hugs (: Ashima

PINK

is the color and theme for this year's Shape Run, and yes piggy is in! Hmm... have no idea if she can complete the 10km this year. Haha.

Passed drving theory test on first attempt (: She is pleased.

Will be going on road trip next holiday, should be fun (: excited!

Health is not doing so well, not really rosy pink, but not fading either, at least she doesn't think so. Probably age is catching up, anyway will still continue exercising.

Completed 2 courses of kickboxing, enjoyed the classes a lot. Now looking for other cool classes to enrol :)

I want a MACBOOK! Oh and actually, am just writing just for the sake of fun haha!

*wink* loves, piggy.

whatever

Even if the whole world walks out the last man standing has to hold on till he falters...

murphy's law

It was a day of possibilities, accidental incidents, domino effects et cetera. And I thought, life is indeed amazing.

Any possible things that may go wrong, will go wrong.

idiosyncrasy

was it my idiosyncrasy or naivety or lacking in sensibility?

Seriously, can I be that dumb that I have lost the ability of making myself understood and being understood?

Apathy WILL kill me.

Do you think you can help me? Please give me a sign. Should I follow your footstep?

Swine flu probably is the solution to put an end to all never ending nonsense.

why do people seek approval from society?

I do not know why, and I need someone to tell me their answers. Secretly, am just hoping that people do not have to conform to society's needs, wants and beliefs.

Where does simplicity comes into in the picture then?

Joanne needs a place of her own, seriously... with air conditioning, a nice kitchen with an oven, a desk of her own, a queen sized bed with comforter, bookshelves full of her favorite books, photos hanging on the walls, her fully owned wardrobe etc. etc.

She dreamed a dream :) but life has killed her dream ):

I dreamed a dream

A current song that I would like to share with everyone. I dreamed a dream, sung by a 47-year old villager who sang at Brit got talent (:

There was a time, when men were kind
And their voices were soft
And their words were inviting
There was a time, when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my dreams with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

one day at a time

Just one day at a time... step by step.

I remember talking about growing up, how much I dislike the adult world, and also discussed about my resistence to change and to adapt to the complicated boring uncool adult world. (ok, so to some people it is cool) Well, being in the working world for 19 months and counting, I still feel the same.

Let's not even talk about appreciations, what about resentment? That's the one thing that I do not understand, you know what, is true, just mind your own business. You'll live. unscathed. People do not love you, people do not hate you, people sometimes might love you.

If you were to do something extra, to help, well, people might love you, people might hate you, people do not appreciate your help, what's worse? People might hate you for helping.

So yeah, all those morals you learn in those childhood years? Not applicable. To live in an adult world, Joanne just have to take it one step at a time. Don't even try talking, might just utter the wrong syllable and get glared at. So why bother right?

(: cheers to my world. Is okay if it only contains me and myself... lest I'm happy when I can be me, even if is only for an hour a day.

One day at a time... just need to wait for that day to come, I will be free like a bird. Though technically, piggy cannot turn into a bird haha nor do pigs fly... but then pigs can fly, if they are put in a plane (: or a helicopter.

Stop, Joanne, stop.

Yes, I'm at work, lunch break, having a silent monologue by myself. Good day to everyone. HUGS. Remember one day at a time (:

I'm back here again, ranting away...

I think I now know why Singaporeans love to rant, it's everything here that makes them want to rant.

Yes, I'm sitting here in front of my pc, suppose to be doing some quotations but no, obviously not, I am here typing away on a long hiatus blog. The thought that I have a blog somewhere in the vast world wide web sparked me to revive it. So yeah...

Anyways, I have been to Siem Reap, Cambodia, really great place to visit, cheap beer!! USD0.50 per mug of Anchor draft beer. Heh! And food is cheap and nice too (: the scenery, breathtaking. Well, I'm bit disappointed not able to conquer Mt. Kinabalu, they had some maintenance going on ): BUT, Joanne did water rafting! (: Thrilling FUN. Arms were aching for the next 2 days. Joanne also went to Manukan Island, nice beach, but not so much of marine life as compared to Redang Island.

Joanne passed Certificate in Negotiation Skill (which she thinks is easy peasy), and also passed JLPT4 (: She is pleased indeed.

Oh, and she has been climbing up 11 storeys of stairs daily (ok, almost daily). And, she is transferred to Sales Department. And no, it is NOT a promotion.

By the way, have I mentioned I got a beater cum mixer as Christmas present from my mum? Haha... lovely. Now, I just need to get an oven, and Joanne can start her baking business! ((:

Actually I'm not all "smiley", is a foul day at work, like every other day. Shits, I have not been writing for months, and I think I'm just crapping away here on nothing. I'm so counting down on my days here seriously... 510 days and I'm a free person. ENDURE!

Joanne will try to post more regularly, even if I'm the only reader to this blog. *mwahs* love