why do people seek approval from society?

I do not know why, and I need someone to tell me their answers. Secretly, am just hoping that people do not have to conform to society's needs, wants and beliefs.

Where does simplicity comes into in the picture then?

Joanne needs a place of her own, seriously... with air conditioning, a nice kitchen with an oven, a desk of her own, a queen sized bed with comforter, bookshelves full of her favorite books, photos hanging on the walls, her fully owned wardrobe etc. etc.

She dreamed a dream :) but life has killed her dream ):

I dreamed a dream

A current song that I would like to share with everyone. I dreamed a dream, sung by a 47-year old villager who sang at Brit got talent (:

There was a time, when men were kind
And their voices were soft
And their words were inviting
There was a time, when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my dreams with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

one day at a time

Just one day at a time... step by step.

I remember talking about growing up, how much I dislike the adult world, and also discussed about my resistence to change and to adapt to the complicated boring uncool adult world. (ok, so to some people it is cool) Well, being in the working world for 19 months and counting, I still feel the same.

Let's not even talk about appreciations, what about resentment? That's the one thing that I do not understand, you know what, is true, just mind your own business. You'll live. unscathed. People do not love you, people do not hate you, people sometimes might love you.

If you were to do something extra, to help, well, people might love you, people might hate you, people do not appreciate your help, what's worse? People might hate you for helping.

So yeah, all those morals you learn in those childhood years? Not applicable. To live in an adult world, Joanne just have to take it one step at a time. Don't even try talking, might just utter the wrong syllable and get glared at. So why bother right?

(: cheers to my world. Is okay if it only contains me and myself... lest I'm happy when I can be me, even if is only for an hour a day.

One day at a time... just need to wait for that day to come, I will be free like a bird. Though technically, piggy cannot turn into a bird haha nor do pigs fly... but then pigs can fly, if they are put in a plane (: or a helicopter.

Stop, Joanne, stop.

Yes, I'm at work, lunch break, having a silent monologue by myself. Good day to everyone. HUGS. Remember one day at a time (:

I'm back here again, ranting away...

I think I now know why Singaporeans love to rant, it's everything here that makes them want to rant.

Yes, I'm sitting here in front of my pc, suppose to be doing some quotations but no, obviously not, I am here typing away on a long hiatus blog. The thought that I have a blog somewhere in the vast world wide web sparked me to revive it. So yeah...

Anyways, I have been to Siem Reap, Cambodia, really great place to visit, cheap beer!! USD0.50 per mug of Anchor draft beer. Heh! And food is cheap and nice too (: the scenery, breathtaking. Well, I'm bit disappointed not able to conquer Mt. Kinabalu, they had some maintenance going on ): BUT, Joanne did water rafting! (: Thrilling FUN. Arms were aching for the next 2 days. Joanne also went to Manukan Island, nice beach, but not so much of marine life as compared to Redang Island.

Joanne passed Certificate in Negotiation Skill (which she thinks is easy peasy), and also passed JLPT4 (: She is pleased indeed.

Oh, and she has been climbing up 11 storeys of stairs daily (ok, almost daily). And, she is transferred to Sales Department. And no, it is NOT a promotion.

By the way, have I mentioned I got a beater cum mixer as Christmas present from my mum? Haha... lovely. Now, I just need to get an oven, and Joanne can start her baking business! ((:

Actually I'm not all "smiley", is a foul day at work, like every other day. Shits, I have not been writing for months, and I think I'm just crapping away here on nothing. I'm so counting down on my days here seriously... 510 days and I'm a free person. ENDURE!

Joanne will try to post more regularly, even if I'm the only reader to this blog. *mwahs* love