Joanne needs to think

think. think harder. think wise.

Joanne has to THINK BIG.

If this is it, then this is it, it is OKAY. Joanne has to think of ways to make the best out of whatever she has. JUST THINK & TAKE ACTION.

fear

It's ironic how I feel these days... where is my guts? I'm having more nightmares than usual, not your closet monster or alien abduction or "the ring" kind of nightmare. Mine are so real that sometimes I get the vibe that it actually might be true. I've been dreaming of deaths, being lost, endless work, helpless... it is so real which makes it all so scary.

Damnit I feel so insecure.

Glad I manage to control certain things, I need to be more controlled. I do not want to be one of those people you see on the streets blindly leading their lives.

Battling my fears are the hardest thing. That explains why I am so tired.

Joanne needs to be in control again. I cannot let other people rule my life. Take charge, girl.

love, piggy.

I looked up to the stars

I made a wish
for all my dear family & friends~
I wish all of you love and happiness

And to those who have found theirs,
I am really happy for you, I do
and it makes me happy to see you happy

And to those who are still in the search,
I pray for your angel of joy to arrive soon,
with love & happiness to share...

Take good care of yourself
life may suck
we may be stuck
BUT there is still hope
Hope floats... which is what keeps us alive

love, Joanne piggy (:

familiarity

so much familiarity I could almost predict what's next
people are different
situation is different
circumstances are somewhat similar

is okay (:

Life is a cycle
What comes around go around, again
I made it before, I'll made it through again
Nothing is impossible
A decision made is a beginning of a battle
Doer does things, takes action,
not just plain talking or watching or having wishful thoughts
Start now.

I once wrote about love package some time last year. I wrote about loneliness, I wrote about rain, I wrote about having various personalities... I whined, complained, swore and all.

"It's your blog, you have all the right to do or write whatever you want." Joseph once said.
Kurien and Aaron used to find it as a source of entertainment? Do you guys still? *smiles*
Other people probably just read it for updates, or gossips.

There is a strong sense of familiarity, this phase. I won't try so hard to hold on... people are so afraid to let go, afraid to forget. I finished White Oleander... and there was something about memory. You want remember, so just remember. Simple as that. Let go & remember.

That sense of familiarity, will always be with you, if you remember (: Haan it always will.

love, Joanne piggy
p.s. internet connection is stable tonight.

Joanne needs a holiday

I need a holiday.