I have had enough

I have had enough, of all the shits and nonsense.

Why the recent vulgarities?

Level of stress is increasing by day and trust level declining every day too.

Why do people back stab?

I have had enough of pretentious & superficial lifestyle. Give me a break.

Joanne is retardedly crazy and lame, and she misses her friend who is most probably busy visiting all uncles and aunties in India right now and getting bitten by Indie mozzies. LOL. She misses home lots too, this Christmas and New Year will be different - lonely and boring.

2008, I fail to identify my feelings toward the new year, except that I hope that I can save some money to go travel in April or May, I will plan for a vacation, I need a holiday. I hope I can roll money on money too, and in Jan my exam results will be out, sighs.

The season of giving and hope doesn't sound too promising to me at all, at least, not yet.

No, I'm not really emo, just tired, yeah, more of tired than anything. Tired of being an adult. Tired of bearing responsibilities. Tired of pretending to be a know-it-all, to be up-to-date, to be a please-them-all, to be politically and diplomatically correct.

Life is pretentious and is a whole big facade.

I find solace in the library. (((: a nerd.

Thank you friends who are always there to listen to my rants, bear with my vulgarities, listen to my whinings, cheer me up with our secret jokes which are not really funny ok tsk. Thanks (((: HUGS. And also, for the visits and dinners and little cards, letters and gifts. Little things count and Joanne appreciates them all, big or small, far or near (((: Thanks for being nice.

I have had enough of craps, give Joanne a break, she needs a holiday, a nice long holiday and some understanding would be nice too.

back from hiatus

Dear readers,

Joanne is back.

Life is like a roller coaster. I miss living, laughing and loving. Why? I am both happy and sad, loved and lonely. How?

Haha, like seriously, I have no eff-ing idea.

Enough soap dramas. ((:

Updates... exam was shite. Don't ask. I was upset. Yes, was, am not that upset now, but still, the pinch is there. I feel poor despite earning monthly wages. That sucks. Finally I got my NLB membership. YAY *big grin*

I have one million things in my head but I just can't pen a single thing down. Lousy girl. Carolings are coming soon. I have mixed feelings haha, excited and not excited. Joanne is getting retarded.

Time is passing by and Joanne is fading together with it... somebody please grab hold of time for me please? Oh and one more thing, Joanne is reading chick lits haha, like seriously, she is! Probably that explains the emo-ness and shit like that, should have borrowed a John Grisham or Sidney Sheldon book instead haha.

Joanne shall aim to keep her indifference.

p.s. I love you mummy, thanks for everything. (((:

For you to decipher...

I braved myself through the dark little things
scattering over the pathways
fleeing everywhere like blind creatures

I cringed at the sight of the rush
one even stopped as if dared me to cross
with the raging headgears all armed

I braved myself to cross the paths
the whims... I was disgusted later
amazed of my courage

perhaps my fear could be conquered
afterall I braved myself to walk through my darkest fear

Not much literature content, actually, damn retarded if the mystery is disclosed. Haha, an expected reaction would be "what the fuck?" I find my writing amusing with such silliness :p I wrote that during lunch break, nerd? maybe. mad? yeah I think so too. *laughs* What is Joanne's darkest fear?

A letter to the Big Guy
Dear Mister,

Thank you for keeping me alive, despite my carelessness last Saturday. (: I was not killed, and was not scolded, only burnt a hole in my pocket, at least I still have the other pocket. I am really very grateful and I treasure life even more. Also, I promised to say a prayer for the safety of "the" postman on behalf of my friend. Please keep him safe (I think should be a he, but in any case is a she, please keep her safe) Thank you.
love, Joanne.
p.s. Thank you also for having me blessed with such wonderful loving family & friends.

Ruff Tuff the Giraffe & Funky Monkey I'm afraid this tale has to be waited at the moment. Joanne has no time for story telling or story writing. Perhaps in December.

Updates:
Joanne is panicking, got the CFA exam slip last Friday, and she is way behind study schedule. So sorry guys, she most probably has to forego entertainments & choir practices.
Joanne is going home next Wednesday night till the weekend, ((: is so looking forward to going home.
Joanne is cooking more often these days, save money.
Joanne feels bit weird about getting permanent resident status, don't know why. (damn, I don't always have to give a reason for feeling weird ok)
YES, Joanne is still bitchy, haha, and she's loving it, omg, serious retardedness.

On a serious note, I'm getting quite used to work, despite the fact that I still have trouble waking up every morning. After all I'm a piggy. Focus, study hard Joanne, the rest of the people who are studying too, yes, it's time to start mugging, it's November, soon, heck, November Rain is already here, don't you see it has started raining?

Joanne sends her love *HUGS! mwah*

funky monkey

has a good friend - ruff tuff giraffe ((:

I'm going to write a story about funky monkey & ruff tuff giraffe, someday, soon. Not today, not tomorrow, because the author's hand is dying (can't type well), the thinker head is spinning from coughing (can't concentrate on getting a good storyline).

Joanne is going crazy, seriously. because she's coughing her lungs out, and she will be out of breath soon. How can one breathe with their lungs outside?

Yes I know I have a sexy voice ((: don't be jealous. And, stop making fun of my "shut up"s It's not even funny. TSK!

My colleagues are funny people too, seriously, I think my job is not bad, just that the pay is really low but well, I have not much complaints at least for now. Money is everything but NOT everything. okay.. what am I talking? Haha... I'm crazy. (:

Meanwhile, I'm enjoying life being a kid, sometimes, with my fellow kid friend, ruff tuff the giraffe.

I should rest now... *cough cough* yes I will go and see a doctor tomorrow. Stop nagging.

love, Joanne piggy (:

rediscovering life (:

museums visit, today (: nice, I like it. free, fun, & full of insights haha, like yeah right...

Kurien gave me dunno how many Indian points today, for Jay walking *puzzled* I don't even know whether is that a good thing or bad.

I heard from a friend that a friend of a friend of mine is earning $15k per month as an engineer, in my mind I was like, "fuck!" Shit, I feel like quitting my job hahaha... why am I even working there with that meager pay and working like shit? I have no idea seriously. Anyway I was just kidding, I'll stay where I am and learn as much I can regarding marine industry (: and if opportunity comes, we'll see. I have accepted to the fact I don't have the luck to earn big bucks, so I will just be content with my pathetic sum I receive monthly.

My manager said I look bored at work *frowns*
My colleague said I look laid back *more frowns*

Oh great, like just the kind of feedback I'd need, am I jeopardizing my own career? I better not.

Happy blue birds ((: Joanne is so random... I know, but I don't know why.

And my friend asked me to switch company, higher pay, much better incentives for the same position *speechless* No, I can't, I think my boss will just kill me seriously. Haha.. bad idea.

is there nothing interesting in an adult's life? *wonders*

I enjoy walking around enjoying the greens, reading, writing, singing, baking, catching up with family & few close friends, walking by the beach, spend my day lazily reading a good book ((: such luxury. Sounds like a nice dream ((: indeed it is.

I feel like I'm a slave to the root of all evil $$$$$ Help!

Life is picking up at a quick pace for me... I need to find more time, to find satisfaction & enjoyment in my work.

At this point in life, I'm like rediscovering what life is all about... indeed it is different. Now that I am really IN the society, the REAL working society, if you get what I mean. Interesting, it is! No doubt about that, and Joanne still muses at the musings of humans!

Live life & laugh! ((:

Thanks, mum & friends *smiles* who never fail to make me laugh, laugh with me & at me *bleh*

love, Joanne.

children's day (:

Joanne is retarded, seriously. Like totally *roll eyes*

"Oh, I've got a missed call.. who would that be.."
"Someone who called you."
"No, someone who missed me called me." *smiles*
"Awesome, you're getting it back again."

I can't stop dreaming of the impossible & wanting to believe dreams are achievable.
"Why can't we do the things that we love and earn a living from it?"
"Like what?"
"Singing, reading, baking, joking etc."
"Singing is a one off thing, irregular."
"I can be a book reviewer."
"But you have to read boring books as well."
"Easy, just give a bad review, for all you know it'll be the best review ever!"

"I want to start my hearty tarts business."
"You'll get bored after everything is settled."
"Will I? Hmm..."

"There's still my BHS..." ((:

Oh and, Kurien & I missed the 96 bus because we were having our mini Children's Day celebration.

"Cockroach!"
"Look, the adults are too occupied with their worries, bills, awful week at work.. to notice the cockroach."
"But we did."
"which explains why we are here and not in the bus."

Seriously, Hollywood should hire us to do stand-up comedy I don't mind to start off at some suburb in Texas. Why Texas? No idea. Just random.

Alright, time to wake up. September has ended. And to all the children out there and to the grownups who are still kids, Happy Children's Day!

HUGS (:

Love, Joanne (always a kid at heart)

I don't know why

am all for Norah Jones again... don't ask me why. I don't know why (:

would love to write more but it requires too much thinking and brain processing. Life has not permit me to have the luxury of so much 'me' time, I've trade it off with the gods of money & work. I have lots to write, but everything is incoherent and disorganized. We'll wait and see, a day when Joanne is free to sit down, think & write in proper. Till then, take care people!

Joanne misses her family, her friends, and she loves them all muchly. HUGS.

The long day is over (: or is it? A long & busy week ahead... oh well :) I'll be just fine.

"Have A Nice Day"

is a happy song, don't know why suddenly am listening to Stereophonics haha.

Joanne is really busy & bitchy.

Don't ask why, I have no answer either. I shall update more when I have time... I just wish we can buy time. Haha.. ok I have to sleep my eyes are shutting. It was a long day but good ending (: woke up at 6am, went to work, left at 2pm, went for tuition, reached home at 4.50pm showered then left for crazy's medicine note. Classical night (: I enjoyed the performances, how I wish I can play the piano half like the pianist!

ok, I need to sleep. My brain is not working anymore. good night. Have a Nice Day! Waltzing Matilda! Nice songs!! :) Thanks. HUGS.

and I'm still grinning

(: *big smile*

It has been a pleasant day.

Joanne was the first to wake up in the house, went tuition. (:

I was glad I started my day early, did quite many things today... tuition, some housework, ironing, studying, movie (HAIRSPRAY, finally haha) and now am back, going to continue studying before going to bed.

Movie was AWESOME (: and I'm still grinning while listening to the songs.

Okay, study time! Work may not be entirely great, but it keeps me going which is good. Still living on my dream, waiting for the day where I can do the things I love and earn money from it, that would be PERFECT and patience is what I have.

Someday I'll find it, my rainbow connection~ and to my dear readers, I wish you all will find yours too (: love, Joanne

Busy bUsy & buSy

First thing first, Joanne is NOT emo ok (: Thank you very much to all of you! mwah!

Although tiring and busy, I try to meet up with friends still and catch up with their lives. Thanks mum everyone at home *LOVES piggy* the CBK darlings *HUGS* crazies, uncles, aunties, bimbos, & of course xmy! Oh and "Happy Birthday" to shushan & xiugui!

Ok, so, first week of work, first few days were boring, yeah, I had to seek refuge in toilet to steal some sleep haha.. oops. Bad. Today, work load is piling up, got few urgent projects... feeling the stress now and seriously I do not know where to find time to finish so many things. Well, I'll survive, somehow. It's just work and I'll just think of the monetary benefits I'll get by the end of the month :) Good enough motivation.

I just registered for CFA. That is like around $1800. I MUST pass my CFA level 1 in Dec 2007. That means after work, rest a bit, study! Haha... sounds exciting. I don't know how am I going to do it, but I just have to. The sum has already been paid, I HAVE to pass.

My tutee is still failing his English... how? Sad. He's like my buddy now, and I call him uncle Tan too sometimes. Haha, because he always complains tired & whine, like an old man. He's panicking now... I hope he can pass his exam, I'm doing whatever I can. sigh.

Choir is good and de-stressing. Now I know what's working life is like, it's tiring, seriously, it is. I'm always sleeping on public transport nowadays haha... just now I felt like heading back to sleep & skip choir but still, I went for choir. It feels good singing with the choir though we don't really sound fantastic but yeah, good de-stresser.

Just some updates.. probably write more in proper & more organized when I'm less tired. (:

my mum is the coolest (:

Seriously, she is. (: and damn funny too. Haha. Now I know where I got my lameness from. Oops.

I will try to keep my moods as stable as possible. And again, I am okay.

Funny how my mum asked about it... made me wonder. I've never really thought about it. Seriously, no one actually cares. Sometimes I just feel like I'm living alone. The job gives me the money. And yes, I'm happy about the money coming in. But in reality, life is actually more than just bringing in money right.

Mummy, I want a car too! Haha. And to my dearest mum, thanks for everything. I enjoyed the chat. (: always do. Cheered me up. *smiles* and I feel loved.

love, piggy~

p.s. wanted to go out today... but, did not. watched rented movie "The Queen" instead. Nice movie (:

I'm employed

just for the record.

Nothing much to say about it. Nothing glamorous or cool, not fantastic pay but point is, it pays. I need the money.

Happiness has worn out. Life's irony.

(:

somewhat happier entry

Life has not thrown me a pleasant surprise, yet.

Happier because I'm laughing more but I feel bad, laughing at other people. Omg seriously, how bitchy can you get Joanne? Yes I'm one hell of a bitch.

Ok, crap aside, I'm happy because I managed to catch up with people, studied a bit, talked to mum on MSN (yes I know, coolest mum I have, haha), being a little indifferent (yes I regard that as something to be happy about :p). I got interviews too. Not that I've gotten any jobs offer, but yes, good things come to those who wait. I seriously hope so, else Joanne is going to enter another phase of depression.

Please don't jinx my job applications, please. Thanks.

Despite the fact that I'm losing sleep because I'm losing the grip of life, I still try to keep my optimism high, I don't know what do I feed my optimism but yeah, I use happy songs & good reads, since I don't have money for happy food. Sometimes I get crazy and happy companies too and those are my life bonuses! (:

Life can be suffocating but yeah Joanne is surviving. Life is never all nice and beautiful, feeling stifled at times but still moving on just fine. So yeah, Joanne is ok (: all she has to do is just keep breathing.

Joanne is still working on the communication problem, she has no idea how, and sometimes she feels that she should just not give a damn. Maybe she shouldn't try so hard, life might be easier on her perhaps.

Oh I received a Teacher's Day present from my tutee haha. English is definitely not easy to teach, how does one teach vocabularies? Help me. And they even have Mark Twain's work as cloze passage now, I can't even comprehend the whole article at first read. I know I suck. I try my best to help him. Don't mention about words like kleptomaniac, biblioklept, stoic etc. appearing in questions, I have to do homework before going for classes, seriously.

Well, Joanne is still very much an idealistic. Although things have changed, she would very much hope things would always stay as good as before. But then again, everyone has moved on, so perhaps she should too.

Being indifferent is good. Seriously, Joanne, get a job & a life. Yes, I know. And I should really stop talking to myself. crazy Joanne. Apparently Joanne is not only crazy, she's retarded too according to crazy Amanda. Haha!

*am listening to Waltzing Matilda - cheer-up song (:*

Have a good day! HUGS.

just a short one

Dear readers,

Joanne is still alive and breathing. Nothing to update except that Joanne is still waiting for a turning point in life. She does not know when that's coming, but Joanne sees light at the end of the tunnel, well, god knows what's coming?

Pretentious is a skill Joanne must learn to be comfortable with, she hates that. If she could, she would just avoid. She only have little time to be herself these days, pretending to be someone else is the last thing she would want to do.

It doesn't make much difference whether day or night, Joanne is most of the time invisible. Nah, no more disappearing act, Joanne is not a street magician, if she were, she would have been making big money, busy appearing on TV and not stuck in a small room in a tiny island.

This is short. Until something new and cheery comes along, Joanne will not talk about her nonexistent life.

p.s. she needs all the love the world could spare.

Anyway thanks dear ones who always try to cheer Joanne up. She'll be doing just fine. (:

with love~

"I need a reason to stay here. I need a reason to get up in the morning, I need to wake up and not cared that it is raining or I'm 39 and alone. I need the job, Richard." Dr Montgomery.
"That's why; if you need the job to get a life, you either need a new job or a new life." Dr Webber.

Joanne needs a new job & a new life. (:

less morbid entry

Daffodils by William Wordsworth
I wander'd lonely as a cloud
that floats on high o'er vales and hills,
when all at once I saw a crowd,
a host, of golden daffodils

(last few lines)
for oft, when on my couch I lie
in vacant or in pensive mood,
they flash upon that inward eye
which is the bliss of solitude;

and then my heart with pleasure fills,
and dances with the daffodils.
***
So what? I don't know seriously. Just something less morbid. Daffodils - flowers, you see. :) haha, yeah right. I figured it out, the problem, I meant, it's not the job. It's more complicated than that.

Career, I know what I want. Yes, after weeks of thinking, finally. At least I got it sorted out.
Life, it's still a blur. Not something within my control seriously.

Sometimes it hurts a lot when I know I am just fading away from the life that I had had. Don't even know for sure am I still in it or not haha, but this is life, there's much more to say, so much more but... I disappeared. At a point, I was fighting, but then I thought, for a second, what's the point, and then I stop fighting. Seriously, it's pointless if you're just fighting alone, you get tired, unmotivated, and you'll just surrender when you've reached the limit.

Yeah, this is Joanne today :) oh by the way thanks for the loves & prayers. I love you all too.

overrated

I miss a lot of things
I hell do
Life is too short to be missed
Life is too short to be judged
Just live it
Enjoy
Life is short, and it sucks most of the time

I'm having conversations with myself in my head all the time
scary
lonely
If I have gone missing, who will notice my absence? Perhaps I'll just be a Jane Doe.

Talking is overrated
Silence is overrated

Whole world changes when someone you love dies or leaves, life will never be the same anymore and you will never be okay as before. But people move on, pretending to be ok.

Love is overrated.

When the worst case scenario comes true, clinging onto hope is all we got left.
It's exhausting.

Letting go seems impossible. What does it feel like to be at ground zero again?

NUS Choir shouldn't really be part of my life now, but I couldn't seem to get it out of my system. Told you the moving on part is obviously not working well with me.

Addictions kill.
Slow death.

Life is overrated. Seriously.

fear

to be lonely in a crowd. scary.

keep myself busy with endless jobs.

it's a tired life. not fantastic pay. but at least it gets my mind off from thinking the unthinkable.

I don't know why

I posted such a long entry... haha, since I've been writing might as well publish. Yes, perhaps I am emo :) so what. No internet for the time being yeah, that entry should keep you guys long enough for a week or so. :p

Goodbye.

super emo stuff for your entertainment haha

Intended blog entry 02082007 1553hr

Numbness is all I am. I have not a clue what to do of my career. I am being judged every day.

The whole world is looking at me, I am afraid of making mistakes. I give away one opportunity after another. People are certainly laughing behind my back I pretend not to notice and laugh it off when it happened to be in front of me.

Do I want to do sales? Yes, I do. But, there is always a ‘but’; I don’t want to be an irritating sales girl. Fuck. Life is definitely not easy.

Seriously, seriously, think about it, do you actually give a damn? Its all about the money isn’t it? Yes it is the money, and the time. The money and the time. And the love, the love which I never have, and I do not know whether will I ever.

I am in denial. How do I keep myself from drowning if denial is an ocean? Throw me a life jacket. Seriously.

I want the time of my life. I do not want to sell my time and soul to my career. It’s ridiculous. I want to do the things that I enjoy doing. I want to help people in the process. Altruism? Not quite. I’d say is selfishness. People help just to make themselves feel good about them selves. Speak about stupidity of human race.

Joanne is a lonely person. She is. Life is not a spectator sport; it’s more than just a game. It is not just about winning or losing. Sometimes when I win, I don’t feel happy. But I always try and feel sense of gratitude. I am thankful for who I am today, for making through another day of my life, but no, I am not joyous grateful. Gratitude and joy not necessarily come in hand.

I’m fine. I’m not sad. I’m far worse than feeling sad, in a way. I’m just jaded. Fighting the battle all by myself. People are there watching, they cheer, they support, they give words of encouragement, but seriously, you are all alone out there fighting the combat.

Sometimes, you feel like just giving the hell up. But you turn your head and see all the people up there at the audience seat, you just couldn’t do this to them. You just have to go on, until your last breath. You can’t call halt until the game is over. That’s the rule of life.

Face the harsh truth, you’re stuck in this whether you like it or not.

Yet another entry 03082007 1157hr

Seriously, I am all alone here. I don’t get any support that I need.

90% ppl at least discourage me joining insurance industry. Reasons being wasting my skills and education, losing friends & being disliked by most ppl. The truth is I'm scared.

“It’s up to you :) really" is the best reply anyone could give. And thanks, sincerely, at least you guys bother to listen :) *hugs*

I have no words to express my fear. It’s like going against everyone’s will. But then again, whose life am I living?

Taking up this career means more challenges ahead definitely, and it’s one hell of a challenge that is to change the mindset of the people. I ask myself truthfully, is it all about the money, no it is not. I want a career where I can learn, acquire skills which are applicable to life where I can help myself and others. Sounds bull shitting, maybe I am, maybe I am being a selfish bitch.

Am I prepared to face the cold shudders from people, friends even, perhaps being the talk over family dinner, being the topic of discussion, exhibit in the zoo, like I am some stupid swine. Spent a fortune on an NUS mechanical engineering degree and join the insurance industry. What the fuck is wrong with that?

Joanne, do you see yourself like that? If you are, I advice that you don’t take up this path. You are going to torture yourself.

Honestly?

Seriously, I never have once thought I’ve wasted my money, or education on my degree. It has given me more than just education, it’s the exposure, the experiences, the kind of education life I will never get back home. I’ve grown and changed so much in the past 4 years. Better or worse that I leave you to judge. However, the talks of the town do affect me, as much as I would like to say it doesn’t, it does, a little. I get discouraged when the whole world is against me, especially when I’m in times of trouble. I need to ensure I have a listening ear all the time. Just one. That’s all I’m asking for. A person who will always be there to listen, to give their honest truthful opinion, to show me the harsh truth when I’m blinded, to scold me when I’m being foolish, to comfort me when I’m sad, to share my happiness and joy, and in return, I will do the same.

I really want a career which I can find meaning in doing, where I can contribute something to myself, to others as well. I want financial freedom, I want time to do the things I love.

A friend brought up an issue worth for thought. Why would someone entrust his/her personal finances/wealth to a stranger who might have the intention to earn profit out of it? Good point. I wouldn’t want to disclose my finances to a stranger as well. It’s all about building trust and maintaining career professionalism.

So help me, help me find that courage. I do not know how all this will turn out. I am afraid. I’m all alone. I have this feeling, people are only there waiting to see me fail and fall and no one will be catching me from below.

Am I ready to make a drastic change? Another change.

Joanne really is tired but the journey is long. Rest stop isn’t really a rest stop if you are alone. I’m tired of thinking. I wish I knew the answer.

Haha *smiles* I still could not come to a conclusion. Seriously, I feel like I should just die now. End all this misery and shit.

I don’t have a career, I don’t have a life. What am I living for?

Sigh. To put it bluntly, I am not ok. I am not fine. Stop asking that so that I don’t have to tell a lie every time anyone asks. I am going nuts. Seriously.

Another intended entry 06082007 1307hr (Grey's elements inside haha)

Have you ever witnessed death? What it is like to see someone you love die?

Everyone lies. Everyone has secrets. There is always a line where we crossed and we wished we never did. We make corrections and we are on the other side of the line again. But, there have been changes. Things will never be the same again… even though we are on the safe side, on the other side of the line.

I do not know why birth and death always make me cry. I guess I am more complicated person than I ever thought I was. I cried, again. I’m glad I did. Crying does me good. Thanks to Grey's, again. :)

For the past week, I have been thinking a lot. I mean, really a lot. I am lonely here, bored, and I feel utterly stupid for crossing the line and not being able to cross back. Physically I am on the safe side, but really, I am at the opposite side.

Many a times I tell myself I will be ok. I am. I really do think I am. How can I not be ok?

Some things just can’t get off my head. People move on. I move on. Whether I like it or not, I have to. And stop getting myself caught in the web again.

I lied.

When life is actually much more fearful than death, we are ready to embrace death. I do not know which do I fear more, life or death?

I do think I am crazy. With such thoughts going through my head… how much weirder can I get?

p.s. I might just drop insurance in the end.
p.p.s. You know what, if only I have an avid group of readers. I’ll write. I will.

I'm amused!

"Have you got a boyfriend?"
"No."
"I don't believe you."
Do I have "I have a boyfriend" written all over my face? What's so hard to believe haha. Uncle refused to believe. Aunt wasn't really convinced either. I need to get rid of that look, whatever that look is. :p

By the way I got THE question today! "Have you found a job yet?" Got it several times, I predict to hear more of them later since am going to meet up with friends for dinner.

"Have you found a job yet?"
"No. still looking, went for few interviews."
"What interviews?"
"I went for a bank interview."
"Huh, why bank?" gave me the VERY surprised look. It's not that I don't want engineering job, but I wasn't called for interview, not my fault. *frowns* Banks are not that bad what, not that I'm working at the river banks. Stressful ya, what job is not?

Haha, I'm lazy to write down the whole conversation. It's pretty much the same. I could just have the conversation by myself.

By the way, I just baked a cake. :) happy.

This morning, ah ma pulled out her dialysis tube half way through the process, blood spurted out and dirtied the place and her all over. sigh. troubled the nurses there, again. Anyway, rushed down to hospital in the morning with aunt to send her clean clothes.

Got my new IC. "Kaunter Perkahwinan & Perceraian" [marriage & divorce counter] is at the same department too haha. It's funny and amusing to see couples coming in for registration. :p

Oh, I had durians & rambutans! very nice. :) Mum bought small shrimps too. Yummy!

So far holidays have been good. Not letting anyone or anything to ruin it. *smiles* Happy Holidays.