Yet Another Faint Episode

It couldn't be any less embarrassing for me.

On my way back from work, decided to give my 14th contribution to the blood supplies of Singapore. And so alas, happily after reducing a certain load of iron, and replenished myself with a cup of hot milo, I made my way home by taking the MRT. What a wise choice of transportation Joanne Lim! Of course there wasn't any seat at that rush hour. And I was still making fun of the fact that a person with bandaged arm never gets a seat.

I survived well until 2 stations before my intended stop, I knew I was going to get a faint spell, asked a hot guy in pink shirt to give his seat to me. Yes, he was kind enough to give me his seat. I tried my best not to throw up in the train. After I reached my destination, I asked the same guy to help me out of the train too. You see, getting in/out of the train at that hour is almost impossible when you have limited energy left.

Finally some fresh air!

I thanked the guy went straight to the bench. Didn't know or care whatever that happened around me. I sat down. Next thing I knew I was having a dream that I was in the MRT platform and lying on the ground. Guess what? I WAS lying on the ground. ultimate embarrassment. I don't have to tell you the stares and the attention. SMRT staff, onlookers, and I dunno... bah. Found my specs on the ground dented, gathered myself up sit on the bench, got my phone and dialed help.

Thank you for being there to help a distress woman.

Oh yes, I forgot to mention the end bit. I was wheel-chaired out of the station all the way back home.

All in all, it was a rather scary episode. Scary because, I realized how dangerous it could be if one is unconscious, one knows nothing that's happening. If this is how death would be, a consolation to all is that, it is a painless experience. not if you wake up and realized you got hurt.

That was it. And I really really do hope that no one recognizes me as the girl who fainted. fingers crossed.

I'm an idiot who is 5000 miles away from home

It's a cold sunny day, currently at 13degC, I dislike the cold air. And the day is moving slowly... like slllooooooowlly.

Not a good day, I'm feeling so guilty for having left the garage door open. Well technically, I didn't leave it open, instead I accidentally unknowingly pressed the remote controller of the garage door while walking away from it heading to the bus stop. So is self inflict guilt upon myself would make myself feel better about the incident? NO. Hence, logically, I should NOT feel guilty since it doesn't help elevate the situation nor change the outcome. YES. But, being a normal human who is , in my opinion, idiotic, we LIKE to feel bad about ourselves and telling yourself that feeling bad about it is the right thing to do. Well for sure, I will remember the garage incident whenever I have to close a garage for the rest of my life. Awesome, another item on the paranoid list. kaching!

Why am I such a moron? 

And then life goes on, we all pretend that the morning incident was not a big deal, regardless how everyone has felt or is feeling. We all wear a smile, but what lies beneath is for you to imagine, not for you to find out.

me time

Enjoying my me time, cleaning my room :) while listening to piano instrumental background music, on a Friday morning. And just doing nothing. Don't even feel like stepping out from the nice flat (my temporary bubble).

How I miss the peacefulness and sheer bliss of solitary.. NICE (:

It's going to be a great day, great weekend and it will only get better.

I'm on a temporary escape from stupidity, ignorance, peabrains and nitwits! Haha, yes I'm such an evil selfish bitch.

Cheers to all the awesome people out there!

peaceful night (:

It is one of the rare nights where I feel at peace, very much at peace. It is as if nothing else matters. (:

Tonight is quiet, no drilling sound from the flat downstairs, no TV noises, no chatters... just the sound of me typing away on the keyboard and the music playing on my macbook. perfecto.

I love tonight's serenity. I wish the same to you too :)

Another randomness

I didn't realize that it has been this long since I have last contributed to this blog of mine. I question its existence or rather, its non-existence in this cob-webbed world. Who reads blogs these days, when they have Facebook and Twitters and whatever they are.

It has been very eventful for the past few months, more than half a year has gone by since I last updated. Guess what was my last post, I was confused and crazy. Do you want to make a wild guess what situation I am in now? BINGO, confused and yes, still crazy, for some people. It depends on your perception of what's normal and what's not normal, to define the line of insanity, :) I'll leave that to you.

Actually I just missed writing, or perhaps, talking (writing, I meant) to myself. Writing allows me to talk aloud to myself, and I don't really care if it makes sense or otherwise to whoever that is reading them. This is meant for me, not you, sorry there.

I think, the world is getting crazy, the people are crazy. Maybe I don't fit in here anymore. I do not feel compelled to conform to society, yet I also feel foreign within the sea of familiarities. So many why(s) in everyday lives yet no answers.

I've decided, let's not get into there, it's gonna be a real commotion if I were to start on the whole crazy topic. Let's fill in the 6months gap here. Let's see, I've finished year 1 of my studies, studied and sat for 6 papers, yes that was a feat, considering I had to work AND study, haha. I've successfully neglected most of my friends, well done Joanne on that. I went to Yogjakarta, it was my first trip for this year and it was GREAT. Now just don't ask me where's Yogjakarta, since you are reading it, which means you have the luxury of Google. Use that. Thank you. I completed my 2nd half marathon in Sepang. After exams, I went hiking with my family up Broga Hill in KL, I learned ice-cream making, I went mangrove kayaking, I learned about dog shelters, volunteered and painted mural wall with my friends, all in 1 month and life is still moving at a rather fair speed.

Oh and one last thing, I finally got myself to watch the Star Wars Series, didn't complete all 6 episodes. But, it's suffice (: May the force be with you.

It's an abrupt end, I'm tired, I don't care, and I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight folks!

do I need a shrink?

1. Do you hear voices in your head?

2. Do you talk to yourself?

3. Do you have an imaginary friend?

If you have answered yes to all 3 questions above, you probably need to see a psychiatrist to get your head treated. A wire in your brain probably is loose or disconnected or something.

Good luck. No, I do not have a recommendation for you. If you have found one who is good, let me know, will be handy to have his/her contact.

Thank you.

good begets good

That's how the universe is :) and once again, life is good, I hope that it only gets better, one way or another.

Despite how selfish human beings are, how dysfunctional society has become, the fundamental universal law holds - good begets good.

I'm very thankful for the great, friendly and nice people that I have met along the way. The people who have extended their help in one way or another. The people who have made me to who I am today. And most of all, the people who has given me opportunity to be myself, liking me for who I am, and to be truthful and sincere to me, even it means to tell me off right at my face. I really appreciate that. (:

Transfer that little happiness to someone, something, anyone, anything. Pay it forward. Goodness will come around the corner before you know it.

Our world needs a little kindness :)

Love,

Jo