Wednesday, November 30, 2005

End of one chapter

An ending for a chapter...

Not a fantastic finish, but yeah, really glad it's over.. think I can't pull up my CAP, again.. this semester. haha.. been trying to tell myself the same old thing again and again... next semester after next, that increased-CAP semester somehow just never arrived. :S I think by the time I graduate I'm still telling myself the same old thing.. what a loser...

Felt kinda cheated this time round.. haha.. ok, cannot blame anyone. Blame myself.

Anyway, finally can do all the things I've missed... I can read all the books that have been holding on shelves so long... I can play... I can relax... I can go home... I can go for movies... I can go shopping... I can continue on my writing... haha... I can just simply momentarily forget about school... hahaha.. momentarily only.

Btw, heard an interesting fact today... now I know the origin of Kuching. haha...

KK was trying to tell the story.. haha.. but I kept interrupting with all my stupid ideas here and there. irrelevant sia.. just too excited that I'm over with my exams. haha...

So it seems that during the British colony times, Sarawak was invaded by some pests or what, then the authority used DDT(yup, it's banned now) to kill of the whatever pests. However, some worms seemed to thrive on and began to multiply, started eating the rooftops; so they replaced Zinc roofs. hmm... I dunno why the roof part comes into the story. haha... Ok, anyway, somehow the DDT went into the food supplies, and disrupted the food chain... and this is where the cats came in, cats started dying becaused of the poisoned food. Mice multiply... (imgaine mice everywhere... eew.. haha..) So, in order to get rid of this new pest problem, the British flew in thousands of cats from Europe! haha... and they were dropped down in cartons from plane!! wow... haha... the first picture I had in mind was... cats with parachute. looks like some rescuing mission by the cats! haha... siao... ok, that's the cat-story and that's how Kuching became Kuching. :S


yup, that's the end... lame finish of a chapter. Begining of another... haha.. a fun-filled chapter begins now!!!

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Metta Sutra

This is what should be done
By one who is skilled in goodness,
And who knows the path of peace:
Let them be able and upright,
Straightforward and gentle in speech.
Humble and not conceited,
Contented and easily satisfied.
Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways.

Peaceful and calm, and wise and skilful,
Not proud and demanding in nature.
Let them not do the slightest thing
That the wise would later reprove.
Wishing: In gladness and in safety,
May all beings be at ease.
Whatever living beings there may be;
Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none,
The great or the mighty, medium, short or small,
The seen and the unseen,
Those living near and far away,
Those born and to-be-born,
May all beings be at ease!

Let none deceive another,
Or despise any being in any state.
Let none through anger or ill-will
Wish harm upon another.
Even as a mother protects with her life
Her child, her only child,
So with a boundless heart
Should one cherish all living beings:
Radiating kindness over the entire world
Spreading upwards to the skies,
And downwards to the depths;
Outwards and unbounded,
Freed from hatred and ill-will.

Whether standing or walking, seated or lying down
Free from drowsiness,
One should sustain this recollection.
This is said to be the sublime abiding.
By not holding to fixed views,
The pure-hearted one, having clarity of vision,
Being freed from all sense desires,
Is not born again into this world.

stumbled upon this at a Buddhist website just now... and I wanted to share with all. =) May all beings be well & happy always... *:)

Monday, November 28, 2005

ONE more! ;)

I just finished one paper this morning.. tired, & sleepy.. haha.. really not used to waking up so early.. siao liao.. dunno why getting more and more pig every day.. regardless what time I sleep, always wake up late.. such relaxing (or lazy?) lifestyle... no sense of urgency at all.. hmm.. I think I really gotten immune of exams..

After the chief invigilator announced stop writing.. I started yawning.. walau.. useless pig la.. haha.. really dunno yawn how many hundred times.. :S (笑…太夸张了吧!) weird, I don't yawn when I'm doing my paper... hmm... too busy writing maybe, when stop writing, my brain turn back to my pig mode liao. haha...

Walau.. my alarm clock didn't ring this morning!!! jialat sia... luckily I still have my handphone alarm... I just let it snooze again and again (ok, I think twice only)... really lazy ah... luckily gui.er call... Thanks girl! =) if not for that call I won't crawl up to answer the phone... haha... what a word to use... "crawl"? pig doesn't crawl... pig rolls? worse... pig what.. I dunno... I only know pig sleeps.

well.. today's paper was okay.. at least I think I can do.. I think only.. haha.. btw wednesday last paper!! so happy... then can finally go celebrate & can happily go home meet everyone at home.. miss you all soo much! *:)

Haha.. ok, I dunno why am I here writing so much crap.. came back lied down a while.. but can't sleep.. or should say dare not sleep.. :S else cannot wake up how? haha.. still need to study for my wednesday EVENING paper.. ahh.. how sick can that be.. nvm.. another 54 hours I'll breathe the air of freedom... ah... I can sense it already. haha... okok... stop it.

syok sendiri saja.. :p

Hang on! will be over soon... just ONE more, SATU, 一门,ichi! ;)

Friday, November 25, 2005

losing concentration

Damn. My concentration level getting lower each day.. best. Even though physically was in the library whole day.. but my effective studying time was only 4 hours!!! Go & die la.. niao.er.

haha.. I really don't feel like studying anymore... seeing the same thing, reading the same stuff, same diagrams, same questions.. :S where's the interesting part of life? lost.

Anyway, couldn't bear it any longer.. so I decided to go run! yes! Cannot tahan liao.. rainy season + exam season just don't make feel like going swimming, too cold.. but no exercise I get lethargic.. ahh.. don't care liao. Go run ba.. the last time I really ran was like more than half a year ago... haha.. felt very shuang.. after running. though effectively only ran 5 laps and brisk walk 2 laps :S what the... really useless niao.er. The point is.. I feel great & fresher after sweating!

Okay then.. hopefully I can get some real work done for another 2 hours tonight! jiayou girl! ;)

mushroom soup + garlic bread + Madagascar cartoon!

Studied about 6 hours today... came back didn't feel like continuing to study anymore. :S jialat sia.. Haha.. so what did I do lei? Best... I did everything I could possibly think of except studying! :)

I phoned home, talked to mum *:) love you, mummy... I did my laundry, I decided to make mushroom soup, eat with garlic bread.. then I thought.. what could have been better with food to eat? haha.. A movie! So I watched Madagascar.. a cartoon in my laptop for quite some time but didn't got time to watch. that's my supper time.. mushroom soup + garlic bread + a kid movie ^^

Time flies... before I know it. It's already.. now! 2.08am..

^^

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Simply magical

Haha.. I'm really happy that finally I got to catch the long-awaited Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire! I was really excited about this movie outing.. haha.. I've already half immersed myself in the magical world of HP.

Before movie, Gui.er & niao.er went shopping for gui.er's shoe and belt, then chaiyen met us at Cineleisure and we watch HP together. It was really an enjoyable movie throughout, never a boring moment.. funny, hilarious, frightening, exciting, sad... every element is portrayed from the movie. won't say it is a spectacular movie.. but it is nicely done. I'm happy with it! =) What could I say more? Simply magical!

[Upon entering the tent during Quidditich World Cup Tournament...]
Harry Potter said in awe:"I love magic."
The tent looks shabby at the outside, but the inside is simply beautiful... it is amazing what magic could do...

Haha.. ok, girl.. come back... come back to reality. Every night go to bed can man man dream.. not now.. not here.. No no... :p

I love magic too... ;) In our life, magic comes in a different form I guess... =)

oh ya,.. not to forget we saw the works of a famous photographer who takes pictures all around the world from the helicopter.. extraordinary work!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

choices & decisions

Life is about selecting the right choices & making the right decisions. True?

How do we know which is better than the other? Information & knowledge are the primary tools that help us in our selection process; but what about conscience? kinship? friendship? empathy? Do we consider these factors? Are these mutually exclusives? How willingly will you bend the rule for a cause? and how do we justify the cost of the effect? sighs...

I hate making choices and decisions.. especially when there are others at stake. I guess this is life.. it is not about making the right choices or decisions; it's all about learning from all our choices and decisions made and how to live by with it. Is it so? Please tell me I'm wrong..

So many questions... but limited answers. How I wish life is much simpler like the one I build in the dreams of my own.. but sadly we all live in the world of reality.

no dreams girl... no dreams... that world of yours only exist in your dreams.

When one day my dreams do come true, that will be the day the sky and earth meets.

There are times when choices made there will be sacrificial of one sort or another upon affected parties. But if that is the best we could make out of our limited options, I guess we just have to live with it... don't we?

just some pondering thoughts... yes, I need to make a decision. make one decision makes me think so much :S siao niao.er~

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

dead

dead edad dade edda adde aded deda daed ddae eadd ddae eadd

12 ways to be dead
niao.er died in a very unduly disgracing manner
dead in the exam hall
killed by 2 pieces of paper, 4 pages of words inclusive of diagrams

stunned
stupefied
petrified

*poof*
brain dead

just pray hard...
that the angels are looking over my lost soul
and may my soul arise again
stronger and wiser
to face the challenges ahead

may niao.er rest in peace

p.s. Ginny Weasley nearly got herself killed by just a mere memory from an old diary. Why not niao.er by 4 pages of powerful papers encrypted with powerful spells!
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I seriously think I should go write a book some day.

Monday, November 21, 2005

sneezy piggy

I'm a sneezy piggy..
merry & lazy!
omg.. what a combi! :p
my nose is itchy
eyes are sleepy
head is heavy
my bed is calling me
looks all so comfy
but I still got to study!
cos I'm not steady
mechanics is so sucky :(
Yo.. am I very free?
write nonsense and not study?
ok enough, stop being crappy!
haha.. my nose itching again..
Seriously, Sneezy Piggy thinks she's catching a cold.
*sneezes again* Oh, god bless me!

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Stellaluna

Written and illustrated by Janell Cannon
Stellaluna (a fruit bat) is separated from her mother, rescued by strangers (birds), and forced to endure hardships (eating grasshoppers). She never gives up, strives constantly to adapt and survive, and is finally reunited with her family. At the end, Stellaluna and the birds reaffirm their friendship. Cannan Writes,
'"How can we be so different and feel so much alike?" mused Flitter

"And how can we feel so different and be so much alike?" wondered Pip.
"I think this is quite a mystery." Flap chirped.
"I agree," said Stellaluna.
"But we're friends. And that's a fact."'
I didn't write this :) took it from a website... It's the book Lucy Dawson in the movie I am Sam read.

I wonder why we do not get to read such books in school when we were little?
"How can we be so different and feel so much alike?
How can we feel so different and be so much alike?"
Ever really wondered why... maybe it's something to keep in mind to think about it.

Anyway, I got to go start studying. Ahh.. I am so reluctant. I've been slacking since yesterday's paper. Can I finish my Narnia instead?
:( Mechanics is boring and difficult to grasp.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

how I miss the life I left in melaka ^^

I miss going to the seaside
I miss playing with the kids (mummy's kuay kia.. haha)


I miss mummy! ^^
I miss mum's food
I miss going morning jogs with mummy.. haha (even though lazy to bangun)
I miss playing with my brother & sister.. haha (so old liao still play)


I miss going shopping (even though nothing much to shop) :p
I miss my schools & friends
I miss driving around Melaka town (when the traffic & weather is good)
I miss everything...
I miss home..
I miss the life I left in Melaka.. my hometown *:)
I want to go home and I pick up the life where I left..
and enjoy my December holidays..

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

exams are approaching...

I have mixed feelings
nostalgic.. simple-mind.. content.. grateful..
a little scared.. anxious..
not really dreading it..
kinda neutral about exams.
Thinking of the past 4 semesters
of exams.. how I fought battles after battles
with friends and companions alongside..
some survived.. some scathed..
I'm fortunate enough to survive till today :)
will I be strong to face more challenges in future?
I hope I do...
still finding my source of strength to fight on
but I know.. no matter what
I am not alone.. I have family & friends..
who are supporting me always..
thank you.. ^^
I wish to embrace exams with a neutral mindset and not fear & anxiety
just a simple girl, doing her best she could..
whatever results.. I guess the process is more important?
*:) Let's all learn together..
All the best and good luck to all my fellow friends and school mates!

Saturday, November 12, 2005

weird sound

I'm hearing weird sounds coming from my laptop... :( Please don't fail me now.. I still need you for another one and a half year at least.. better hope it's nothing major.. please.. please..

爱心便当

刚刚邻居给了我一碗糖水,真是出乎我意料。那么晚了还有人敲上门来,看着她拿着一碗糖水送上门,真是感激又感动。除了自己亲爱的家人,没有几个人会给我准备爱心便当。曾经一段时期还有爱心晚餐,我感激万分;如今,今晚还有爱心糖水。^^
她说是祝福考试顺利。她还分给了其他朋友,随着祝福她们。*:) 天啊,原来世上还有那么的大好心人。也就在我身边而已。
只要是爱心便当,吃起来特别美味。:) 今晚宵夜的 "爱心糖水" 果然很甜;里面充满了体贴,爱心,与祝福。汤里有白苜,红枣,龙眼,莲子,白合,玉米等。谢谢!
鸟儿也真心的祝福大家考试顺利!^^ 大家加油!

Friday, November 11, 2005

explosion of a star

Like an explosion of a star*
just a moment of light
most things in life are like the stars
a star is born
it will never last
soon after it will be back to nothingness
like how everything first began

Thursday, November 10, 2005

*回忆(一)

逐步踏进大厦里
回想当日的情景
一幕幕从影在脑海里
欢乐的时光
紧张的时刻
担心的时候
一切已成了过去
美好的回忆

Monday, November 07, 2005

The Journey

Journey back home is always beautiful
Today's sunset seemed extraordinary
Crossing the bridge between 2 nations
Sea is calm, I could see the reflection of the setting sun
I sat by the window & stared in awe the gorgeousness of nature
The sunset marks all day's work has come to an end
I continued my journey.. with hope & joy
It is just the begining of a long journey
A journey to home... (04102005)

3 days later approximately the same time, same place
I crossed the bridge between 2 nations.. again
The sea was still calm
but the sky was cloudy with tinge of red and purple
I see high rise fortresses in a land so familiar yet so foreign
this time the journey.. my heart is a bit reluctant
the traffic was very slow
I sat by the window and wonder..
What is it that awaits me in this island

I promise

okay.. I promise won't do that to myself ever again. *:)

not really felt bad about what I did.. but just felt utterly stupid. thanks to all the naggings.. :p Haha.. thanks a lot to all your concerns. :) it shows you all care. I've thought about it, and yes, I am silly.. shouldn't be too stupid. this isn't the way to do unto myself.

Anyway... ;) it's past, now's the time for final exams.. good luck girl! and All the best to all!*

Sunday, November 06, 2005

so I am stupid

mummy says I'm silly..
zhiren says I'm stupid..

hmm... best.. what will xmy say? haha...

Nvm, I have nothing to comment on that. At least I don't feel doing something against my conscience. whether right or wrong.. silly or not.. is alright.. everything is over and I'm glad it is. ^^ thank you very much to my group mates and I look forward to working with you guys again next semester. I think we did quite well for our first phase. ;)

Finally can concentrate on our final exams now! everyone must jiayou!! =)

Thursday, November 03, 2005

A beautiful morning ^^

A pair of invisible hands woke me from sleep ^^
carressed my face.. touched my shoulders..
held my hands and holding me warm and tight..
(like how every mum in the world holds her child)
the world seems bright and beautiful.
I was awaken to a beautiful morning..

It wasn't a dream.. I cannot recall having a dream last night.. maybe it was an illusion. But no, it wasn't scary.. :) it was full of warmth. Was it mummy? I felt like a little girl once more.. *:) perhaps the hands belong to my guardian angel. Giving me faith and strength to move on regardless the road ahead..

Row row row your boat, gently down the stream,
Merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream... ^^

Such a simple children song/rhyme, almost everyone knows this song. From very young, we were impressed by the idea that life is but a wonderful dream.
'Happily wadding through the stream of life.. in search of your dreams and destiny.'

Is this true? I do not know... but one thing for sure. I am a believer in dreams. *:)

stupid? yes? no?

I did something everyone will deem stupid. I know saying it out everyone will say I'm stupid. But I'm not upset. In fact, if I did otherwise, I think I would be unhappy. That's me. :) I could never bear myself to do something that is untrue.

One may ask... am I true to myself then? Well, at least I am true to my conscience. ^^

To me, it really doesn't matter at all. If by the end of the day, it needs to boil down who has done the most and the least, regardless how well a team is.. I mean, there has to be a no.1 and a no.10, right? I have done all I could.. maybe not as much as others.. cos I'm too stupid in my field of studies.. Haha... for this I agree I'm stupid. :p I do not know exactly how much each of the members have contributed, I can only identify the significant ones whom are the 3 or 4 few.. so what about others? Why put me at the last? Of course I'd think of myself not the last... but then again, who am I to say that they have done less than I do or more... just to be true to my conscience, I'd rather put myself last.

I do not mind at all. There is an equal probability that one of us is contributing the least... everyone measures contribution differently; since there is an equal probability, why not I just put myself as no.10? You might then argue... why not others? Reason being simple: since I do not know the truth, I'd rather put myself in the worst shoe rather than others. Is nothing life or death matter. The most I'll just get a lower grade from the rest. It won't deviate much as well... plus, I've added a general positive comment on the group. Haha... hope so... I'll be contented with just a B.

Btw I broke my specs after HR lesson today... ;( All I could see was blurry vision in Mechanics Lecture. Attended Vienna Boys' Choir concert this evening.. :) Really nice, I'm glad that I went, but I can't see their faces.. :( Luckily it wasn't a musical performance, else I really won't enjoy with my blurred vision. After I came back from concert, I mended my specs with cellophane tape. Haha... it looks umm... haha... it can only be used in the room. Damn. :p
Bottom-line: I need to get my spectacle lens replaced ASAP!!

That's my day... a silly girl's Wednesday ^^

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

如果历史可以重写…

结局会不会因此而改变?

或许今天根本不会有鸟儿的存在…

ok, enough sjb... I'm fine. ^^